essential yet appealed
carry all your thoughts, across an open field
when the flowers gaze at you
they're not the only ones who cry when they see you.

well, today's th last day of 2006. so i guess i'll do some reflecting. haha. i guess this year's new year will be spent at home w my dad. seeing tht my sis nd mum are out w my cousins nd i didnt wnt t go. i've no idea why. normally i'd fancy th idea of gg out together w them seeing tht korkor's finally back frm america. bt today? im just not in th mood.

ironically, even though i havent done most of my homework or fulfiled most of my responsibilites, i am still looking forward t sch. haha. sec 3, i like th sound of tht ;D haha. i really wish i could say next year would be ALL FUN ND GAMES. bt i cnt. haha. guess its time t buck up nd really study hard. unless i wnt t be grounded fr th rest of my life. which i dnt wnt. haha.

well. haha. looking back at this year. it was really a fulfiling one. even though i havent been mugging t my fullest fr th exams. having known so many new wonderful pple. im content i guess. im just really glad t have made such wonderful friends nd im really grateful fr all th help nd support they've input when i needed care ;D

haha. i shall not make this a super super super long post like last year. so anyway. despite wht you all think. i do love my FAMILY alot. even though i bitch about them half th time ;D many thanks t my friends. hahahaha.

THANKS TO:

cherry; fr being th best confidante any girl could have. nd t mention my girlfriend <3>eliz; fr being a fantastic friend/couz. you're my duckie <3>liyi; fr being my stupidshite who i love alot ;D
belle; fr being th one who causes th most scandals nd always cheers me up ;D
simin; fr being such a great jie. nd always making me laugh ;D
shu; fr being such a great friend nd supporter ;D
jane; fr being such a great "senior". haha. nt so great. bt i still love you ;D
sj; fr being my radioo. haha. nd fr always making me laugh ;D

hahaha. other than tht. th other pple who always cheer me up. i cnt possibly write everybody's names down. hahaha. 2e6 class of 2006. th pple frm clash, nd frm eldds, nd tolley. aly,jerri,cheryl. haha. i havent forgotton about you guys! i had fun w you;D pple frm chi class! marion&karen ;D pple frm th clique this year, jockay,chai,nicolette,bea nd ramya. haha. nd i couldnt forget my juniors. kellsie,kellice,alfee. ;D haha. just everyone i guess. this year was really a great one w you guys ;D

haha. have a great new year you guys. ally loves you ;D

Labels: 2007 ;D

Dont write me off just yet,9:45 PM
Dont write me off just yet,2:20 AM if you cn make it all go away
i'll go with you.

i am SO irritated. fucking bastard on msn called me a bimbo. rawrrr. do i really look like a bimbo? wht more, he said tht I SAID THT I WAS A BIMBO. wth. i am NOT DUMB OKAY. bastard. haha. maybe its because im pretty! lols. bt still. i dnt mind being called a bimbo in good fun. bt please. you're just a fugging nobody t me. fugging nobodies arent allowed t call me a bimbo. you freak.

haha. CHERYL VALBERG IS A FUNNY GOOSE. goose sounds weird doesnt it? i still like duck better. haha. little duckies. bt she insisted goose was better. they peck really hard. peck peck. tht silly goose. lols.

im bored today. i need someone t get me high ;D Dont write me off just yet,9:13 PM you always smile
bt in your eyes, your sorrow shows.

haha. so. i didnt do much today. woke up. found out tht dad was at home. had lunch. mooched around. used th comp. watched bleach. haha. basically did nothing productive ;D

chatted w sj. she is such a kukuqiao. haha. she claimed tht most bungs have small eyes nd passives have big ones. because it makes th bungs look cute, nd th passives pretty. which made me come t a realisation ..

me: OHH. so tht means i'd make a cute bung laa!
sj: uh. maybe.
me: haha. so you're saying thts why i cnt make it as a passive?

haha, i cnt remember wht she replied. bt tht woman is seriously ridiculous. lols.

sj: aye. tell you wht.
me: yeah?
sj: we switch okay? you turn bung nd i'll turn str.
me: haha. OKAY.

nd nd! i nearly died of laughter when i found out tht her ex nd her friend went t tag jane's blog. haha. commenting abt wht she blogged abt her. her name is jolene if im nt wrong. like zomg. jane said smth like "sj saw her ex, nd she didnt even say hi t sj. omg, so evil". haha. smth like tht? nd apparently, jolene's friend gt all hot nd bothered about it. haha. i mean, come on honey. i dnt think tht tht is unreasonable. i mean, its nt like its untrue. haha. if jane wrote smth like "omg. you knw, tht woman is such a slut. she dates 3 pple at one time nd refuses t say hi t sj". haha. tht would be smth worth getting pissed about. nd an perfectly understandable situation if she fights back. haha. bt a statement like "how evil. she didnt acknowledge her ex"? haha. im amused.

nd nd. jolene, i hope you're nt reading this. bt if you are, haha. i dnt mean anything against you. bt then, im sure you agree w me dnt you? it does make you look a little silly.

god. its fortunate tht im not able t acess jane's blog. or i'd probably die frm laughter. lols. th little things in life tht makes it so enjoyable huh? ;D

well, haha. thts besides th point, i finally took th time t upload some of th pics w took. here they are ;D

marriot w hui li ;D




















haha. i dnt knw wht was th purpose of this. we've nice skirts?
BT LOOK. IM TANNER THAN HER ;D;D




















uhh. lets just say we was bored ;p















i knw you're jealous ;D















me nd sis ;D




















i love th effects of this pic. TOO BRIGHT ;D
















haha. nd here are some of th pics in which we took when jane came over tht night ;D;D

our prezzies! whee! ;D;D















mahmah&moomoo! haha. hers&mine (:














;D




















i knw i look ridiculous. bt i like it ;D




















(:















i never ever smile like her ;D




















;P














th last one. we had fun ;D;D



Dont write me off just yet,5:26 AM today. i dont feel like talking.
today. im just not in th mood.
today. im not happy.

guess its th same fr almost everyone. getting frustrated over th frigging internet. yada yada.. it must be th rain or smth. just keeps raining or raining. even a sane person could go crazy. unless they love th rain or smth. which is crazy if you ask me. th rain is so retardly depressing. makes me wnt t cry. rawrrr.

nd sme times, i really feel so tired of listening t pple whine. haha. i wnt t whine. well, nt exactly whine. rawrrr. im just sick of saying "dnt worry, its gg t be alrightt". because you knw wht? im sorry, bt i really dnt knw if it's gg t be. i just hope you guys smile again. because thts all i wnt t see.

now i need you more than ever. Dont write me off just yet,6:51 AM time runs like a race when you're around
im screaming inside, bt you dnt hear a sound
screaming,
i love you. i love you.
you smile nd i melt
its cliche nd i know it bt i cnt stop myself.

can you take it all away?

well, havent been blogging fr th past few days. so shall update now ;D

sunday 24th
woke up. mooched around at home. had tui. bt i went in only at about 4:50 cos was talking t sj, nd i didnt feel like gg. relatives came over fr christmas celebration. had fun. whtever, ah hua jie jie bought sushi. haha. it was good. they left at about 12. my parents nd sis went t th church count down party thingy. i stayed at home t be online. many thanks t th christmas wishes! nd t those tht i didnt reply t, im terribly sorry. you're much appreciated though ;D

monday 25th
roused by my mother's screaming. cousins came over fr lunch. talked rubbish. went fr karaoke ;D karaoked till about 6? went off fr dinner. then went home. online-d. went downstairs t pick jane, her mum, nd her bro up. online-d. her mum talked t mine. we lazed arnd, camwhored, etc. did rubbishy things. nd she bought me a stuffed cow fr christmas! i like i like ;D then she went home. watched tv. sleeeeeeeep ;D

tuesday 26th
woke up at abt 11. watched bleach. ate lunch. bused t meet jane at clementi. it was raining so heavily, i nearly died. it was so cold man. we bused t town. went t heeren, walked in th frigging rain. we took prints ;D walked arnd. went t cine's LJS. i bought famous amos cookies nd she gt shrimps ;D shared. was so tired, i nearly fell aslp. sj came down t meet us. we just walked arnd. gt ice cream. walked arnd taka. then prepared t leave.

problem was, it was raining super hard, so jane nd i didnt wnt t walked t far east t take bus. tried t find another bus stop w 105 bt cldnt. so walked t cine. sj went t asked th security guard, bt he didnt knw either. met 2 of her friends. they were nice. haha. a rather sweet couple, cute ;D asked them whether they knew which bus stop had 105, bt i was totally losted. wanted t cab back bt jane didnt. in th end, we took 106 back t clementi. i bused t jurong frm thr t get t ahyi's house. gt scolding frm my mum because i reached arnd 6:30 when i was suppose t be thr by 6:00. shite. its nt my fault tht it was raining /:

today 27th
woke up late. realised tht th internet was nt working. heard frm dad tht it has smth t do w some underground cable thingies in taiwan or smth? rawrrr. your cables gt problem, come nd affect other pple's lives alsoo. darn it. haha. spoilt my whole morning. ate lunch feeling miserable cos there was nth t do. read alot. felt tired. slept a little. haha. then called cherry. talked t her fr a while. dad came bacck. nd th internet started working again. whee! ;D

i wnted t change my blogskin, bt blogskins.com is taken a hell of a long time t get into. so i guess i'll wait fr tmr. //:

ohh! nd nd! ly's back! so ally's a happy girl ;D

wrong signals
dnt flash green when you feel amber. Dont write me off just yet,3:53 AM humans were born fr love
love brings out th humanity in people
bt yet we see such a broken world
whr humanity fails
nd you find
th hardest problems t get over are th matters of th heart.

its not love. its not love.
not this.
its just getting high on some hormonal imbalance.

i swear. its not love. Dont write me off just yet,10:48 PM fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

no. i dnt feel any better. arghh. Dont write me off just yet,12:49 AM an amalgamate of screaming emotions
in agony though no one sees
each different bt pleading th same plead
quick, someone. save me please.

alrightyy. just gt back frm town. woke up early yesterday morning. bused t town. walked arnd w sis. got prints w huili. swam at th hotel. then went out t eat in th nightt. we gt back t th hotel early t watch th thai ghost show on tv. haha. it was kinda freaky. gt scared half to death.

we took pics at orchard road last night. which i felt was kinda lame. haha. i felt like a frigging tourist. went t walk arnd at cine w dad because we didnt wnt t go t paragon. haha. saw sj! stupid woman pinched my arm/: got some stuff fr friends nd family. so im happy. haha ;D

woke up. went t lucky plaza fr brunch. went back t th hotel. played few wrongs of majong. bathed. then gt ready t go home.

haha. sounds so unhappening doesnt it? well, it wasnt. gt some phone calls frm jane nd eliz. haha. was fun. bt i cldnt talk much. heard lots of online news. haha. i miss out a lot in just a matter of one day. tht sucks. bt its so irritating. god. kidsss. please grow up. you're making a spectacle of yourself nd its not very nice.

rawrrr. im so irritated. i am very very irritated. nd im sick nd tired of listening. i dnt wnt t listen anymore. ughh. just go away. go very far away please.

eee.. i hate holidays. i miss sch. nd i miss pple. LIMLIYI! you stupidshite, please hurry come back. i miss you like fuck /: nd nd nd. i miss eliz, nd jane nd shu n belle nd simin nd nd nd. everyone. rawrr.

Labels: grow up please.

Dont write me off just yet,12:17 AM the bed im laying in is getting colder
wish you never would have said it's over
nd i can't pretend
tht i wont stop thinking of you.

wht's this im seeing everywhere? everywhere i look, i see, everyone i know. wht is this? wht is this misery? everyone's falling. falling down fucking hard. nd no one's there t help them up. its hard, hard t keep together.

i wnt this t stop. please.

theres nothing good about goodbye
i could swear i saw you cry
every story has two sides
in it he said she said fight
always knew you'd wind up fallin
bt im fallin' harder
just fall apart.
Dont write me off just yet,5:20 AM wtf. i hate you, bitch. go nd fucking die.
i wont even care. Dont write me off just yet,8:43 PM haha. i found three pics frm my recieved files! i dnt knw how they gt there. bt anyway. here they are ;D














































Dont write me off just yet,1:58 AM nd inside im screaming
fuck it fuck it
alcohol mixed w ice
lets try t make this alrightt.

went t meet jane nd shu at cck yesterday around 4:30. we went t longjohns because they wnted t eat. sj came. we walked arnd. went t th arcade. then we lrt-ed t bp ;D

sat arnd at macs. haha. then we went th library t read. it was kinda fun. i borrowed four book(: four very frivolous books, bt ohh well. haha. so i cn indulge in girly sillyness (: after tht, we just went t macs. ate dinner. took pics ;D

it was raining when i walked home. gt all wet. haha. dad was on night shift last night, so slept in mum's room. which meant, no phone. i couldnt sleep. nd was feeling lousy nd all. cldnt stand all tht stupid noise, so i cried. rawrr. this sounds so cliche, bt i listened t th rain fall on th window panes till i fell aslp (:

haha. nd nd! cheers nd many thanks t VINCENT NATHALIE! haha. she made be feel better by just asking "are you okay?". haha. tht seriously make me feel better ;D

worked like a bloody maid today at home. i swear, its so tiring t be home w mum on a holiday. haha. bt at least im finally online. even thou no one is not /:

im talking t jane now. nd her brother is fugging annoying. god. i hope he becomes gay or smth. no offence or anything. bt seriously. rawrrr.

post th photos when i get them (:

i need another pill t make this all feel okay Dont write me off just yet,11:39 PM falling into nothingness
while grasping fr a call of help
if you knew you were doing this t me
would you turn around?
if you knew tht inside im broken
would you still bring me down?

im screaming fr someone out there
pleading for your help
i wnt you t know
its really not my fault.

ive losted my ability t write. nth good comes out of me anymore huh.

belle: if i dye my hair i'd look like a pai gia!
me: haha. i think i'd look very class pls
belle: if i die i'd be dead

HAHA ;D Dont write me off just yet,9:04 PM there's a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up
and another around to help them bend your trust
i've got sunset in my veins
and I need to take a pill to make this feel okay


was just feeling oh so horrible of myself. nd so irritated w hearing th same things. rahh. i nearly broke down nd cried my eyes out. until crispin said t me;

All is well says:
You are all pretty

All is well says:
you are pretty too

All is well says:
but i know one thing that they might or might not have which you definitely have

All is well says:
which is inner beauty

All is well says:
Don't bother and care about what others think of you.

All is well says:
Just know that

All is well says:
I think you're pretty

All is well says:
on the inside and outside

youth must have its fling <3>
(:

All is well says:
God thinks you're pretty too

All is well says:
You're gorgeous

youth must have its fling <3>
;D

youth must have its fling <3>
you make me wnt t cry (:

All is well says:
haha

All is well says:
i won't let you cry sad tears

All is well says:
only happy tears then i'll allow

youth must have its fling <3>
yay

youth must have its fling <3>
alrightt. thanks ;D;D;D

All is well says:
I'm sorry for not tell you that over the phone yesterday

All is well says:
but that is what i really feel

youth must have its fling <3>
haha.

youth must have its fling <3>
thankss.

All is well says:
and know about you

youth must have its fling <3>
yey

youth must have its fling <3>
haha.

youth must have its fling <3>
kor,you're really handsome ;D

All is well says:
ER.. That i know

All is well says:
lol

youth must have its fling <3>
haha

All is well says:
I am sexy too.

god. i love crispin so much. haha,alrightt. so i did cry in th end. bt it was because i was touched. haha. i admire crispin's confidence so much. nd his ability t do things he wnts t. god. i admire you so much kor! nd i love you alot alot, frm th bottom of my heartt. thanks alot ;D;D;D
Dont write me off just yet,4:31 AM nd i wonder
wht wld you do now.


alrighttt. so im blogging since i havent updated in th past 2 days. yeah. cherry came over on saturday w th rascals. we had fun. did rubbish. cooked. played arnd. camwhored, then we went t bpp fr dinner ;D

Dont write me off just yet,9:15 PM alyssa is an emoshite girl now /: Dont write me off just yet,7:27 AM cherry came over w th rascals! we had lots of fun. update tmr w th pics. gt shockening news today. haha. i sld update myself more often, thank god my sources are reliable nd fast. they do th work fr me ;D haha. ly lefted fr thailand already. no more stupidshitee //: i miss sj! nd i miss stupidshite alreadyy. so ally is a very sad girl now. boo.

thts all fr now ;D Dont write me off just yet,5:53 AM out of no where
you came t save me
nd now i cnt live without you
;D


conferenced w eliz n sj last night. then jane joined in. it was super retarded. nd we talked fr a super long time. until my phone conked out nd i cldnt call out//: haha. still, slept pretty late. woke up at 11 by jane's call. haha.

chatted w her a while. then went t wash up nd change. met her nd shu down staitrs. went t bpp. sat at macs. ate. camwhored! haha. we were being super retarded. then we went t th playground t sit. then they came t my house ;D

we camwhored alot. haha. went down t return my library books. bought sparkling grape juice! nd chipsl. came back up. shu used th comp, jane nd i sat arnd crapping nd camwhoring summore. hahaha! they went home after tht. ;D

everyone knows tht ally is very lazy in uploading pics because arranging them drives me crazy, so i put them all into one presentation again. here you go ;D


Dont write me off just yet,5:48 AM conversation w daddy ;D

me: whts tht over thr? why is thr a plantation in th camp?
daddy: its nt part of th camp, its a orchid plantation
me: ohh.. tht sucks. why nt cow farm?
daddy: they used t have them
me: HUH? THEN WHT ABOUT NOW?
daddy: dnt have already lo..
me: ALRIGHT. LETS GO GET A COW FARM DADDY!
daddy: *silence*
me: alright alright?! black spotted white cows grazing on pastures! pretty!
daddy: mm.. alright.

AHAHAHA! WE'RE GG T GET A COW FARM!! ;D;D;D


haha. in tribute t annon/some1 who said i was zhilian, haha. here are more pics tht we took th other day ;D


in th toilet



















she liked this bag. haha. nice meh?














i swear tht top is hot ;D



















this was th nice sales assistant at perlini's ;D



















i think my sister is pretty! do you think she's pretty?
of course you think she's pretty! in fact, you'd say,
"yeah duhh! your sis is pretty! unlike you!"
haha, dnt worry, i wont take offense. she's a pretty thang ;D














lovesss <3
thts all darlings! (: Dont write me off just yet,3:54 AM lets see how long you cn hold it in
till you stand up nd scream
fuck it


haha. had a rather retarded night w my sis yesterday. haha. acting retarded in th room. lay in bed fr a super long time till jane called. chatted fr like 3 hours or so. haha. it was kinda retarded. then finally went t sleeep.

lols. i feel rather amused. th more you try t hide it, th more obvious you appear t me. i wonder if this is th real you. lets face it, you're attractive nd have plenty of charisma. bt wht are you really looking fr? affection nd attention. fair enough, who wouldnt? bt your ways are simply unethical. i dnt detest you fr this however. i just wonder how you really feel inside. whether all this is really making you happy. you're just lonely isnt it? i cn tell. anyway, i wish you well. (:

anons&some1s. please. if you havent realised it yet. you dnt bother me tht much. have fun darlings ;D


i cn see it in your eyes
you really wnt t die
bt you hide it Dont write me off just yet,3:53 AM when you feel like crying
fr no particular reason
when th world seems t be crashing down
nd you dnt knw why



dad woke me up at 9 this morning. haha. i went back t sleeep. woke up at 10. he made french toast fr us! hahaa. i love my dad alot alot. it was yummy ;D then he sent me t sch t meet simin. went t serene macs w her nd belle. ate there. laughed alot. haha.

then went over t island creamery. we started doing th frames there. haha. it was kinda fun really. even though tiring. we took pics nd printed them out there. haha. looked retarded plssss. bt they were kinda cute i guess. haha.

my phone resetted by itself! i was turning off my bluetooth nd it hung halfway. so i lefted it. when i turned it on again, all my pics, contacts, msges tht were saved in th fone were all gone. GAHH. i was so heartbrokened. i wanted t cry //:

haha. anyway. then bused home. im kinda tired now. i miss eliz! hurry come back honey!! //:



i think i think i think
i now wht it means now. Dont write me off just yet,12:26 AM random thought about myself

i cnnt live without my daily icemilo

i cn play hexic fr hours on end [even though i suck at it]

i am terribly jealous of my sister's beauty [ i still love her thou]

i hate beansprouts in anything

if you poke me, i'll scream

uh. i say random things like " i wnt t be a flower!"

i cnt think of anymore random things. haha ;D

picked my mum up frm kl yesterday! hahaha. i sort of missed her. bt now th house is noisy again. hahaha.

me:yay! mummy's back!
mum: haha. DID YOU WRAP YOUR BOOKS OR NOT?
dad: no luh. i help her wrap (actually, he's still wraping them RIGHT NOW)
mum: whtt! so big already! ownself wrap!
me: uhh.. i.. no la.. i..
dad: nvm la.
mum: no! she must..
me: THANK YOU PAPA!
*silence*
me: THERE WAS A PAPA BEAR, A MAMA BEAR ND A BABY BEAR
*thought fr a while*
me: THERE WAS NO SISTER BEAR!!! AHAHA!
mum&dad: *laugh like crazy mad dogs*
sis: WHTTT?

haha. thanks daddayee ;D Dont write me off just yet,9:40 PM



Dont write me off just yet,12:30 AM here are th pictues frm yesterday! haha. refer t post below about it ;D
Dont write me off just yet,5:45 AM