okay. so everything turned out well. thank god, if not i'd be dead by now. haha. went kboxing this morn w my sis. it was fun. upload yesterday's nd today's pics later. im lazy nw. haha.

i made a new friend! haha. yay. she's nice ;D

and i'd give up forever to touch you
cause I know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
and i don't want to go home right now
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life and sooner or later it's over
i just don't want to miss you tonight
and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.

because because because, i only need you
<3 Dont write me off just yet,11:46 PM try to hold back th tears
so i wont let you down
bt they rush down anyway
nd leave stains on my face.

yesterday was fun. joy nd i had lots of fun ;D bt today was pureee shite. i'll update about th happy stuff when im in a better mood.

i wonder wht you'd do if you were me
bet you wouldnt be so composed
stamp your feet on th ground nd scream
fuck it.

if i jump down th building
would you see?
tell me, would you?
blind as anything
when everything's as clear as day
dont tell me.
i dnt wnt t know wht you think.

i hate you. Dont write me off just yet,6:58 PM HAHA. eliz said tht she laughed like crazy when she read my blog. i asked her which part, she said EVERYTHING. like omgzz. she laughs at th NOT FUNNY things? haha. wht a funny duck ;D

yesterday night was fun. we went t jroung point. then went t gugu's hse fr a while. did retarded things w th cam. upload pics later.

joy's coming over later! yaysers! we're gg have so much fun ;D

<3 ally Dont write me off just yet,8:06 PM i feel much happier today. people make me happy. hehe.
take my mind of things nd just reeeelaaaxxx. HAHA.

i'll be part of th cast nd you'll be th cuffs.

i'll be th flower nd you cn be th tall grass ;D Dont write me off just yet,8:26 PM i bet you didnt knw i was cursing you under my breath.
dammit. get off my back.

god. please please please please please.
ally, dnt cry nw.

i miss cherry/: Dont write me off just yet,1:43 AM i dnt knw why, bt i cnt reply t my tags on my tagboard. so i shall reply them here, because I CNNT STAND IT ANYMORE. (:

CAIYAN; haha. i miss you too! ;D
JANE; err.. HAHA. okays. i miss you! /:
SUB; haha. sorry laa! i was busy mahhh (:
LY; haha. it sucked. bt lots of yummy food! ;D
JIE; haha! yeah. finally manzz! love you! (:
SIS; mm.. yeah.

TO LALA
okay. i really do not knw who th hell you are. maybe you're just trying t tell me how you feel, bt i do not appreciate your annonmity.personally, you do not bother me tht much because i feel tht you dont mean any harm. bt by tagging my blog like this, you are upsetting my sister immensely, nd i DO NOT LIKE IT.

i'd like t say tht you do nt need t "feel for me nd my sis" because we are perfectly alright, nd i do not need your sympathy either. i dnt understand wht you mean by th "whole stacy thing or your popularity in sch is so big". because, IT IS NO BIG DEAL. people make mistakes, so wht if everyone knows? stop bugging me about it because its already over. im sick nd tired of everyone talking about it as if its a huge crime or smth.

nd i hate it when pple bother my sister about it. please my SENIORS esp my sister's EX CLASSMATES. you KNOW it if im talking about YOU. if you used your brains a little, you'd realise tht my sister doesnt like it when you talk about it to her. so stop it. if you have a problem w it, come nd talk t me. there's no need t involve her.

well. if you wnt t let me knw how you feel, i'd really appreciate it if you come nd tell it t me face t face. its not like im gg t bite your head of or smth. it just really annoys me when pple tag annonmously. also, th way i blog is my way of letting of steam nd my own form of expression. i do not think tht you need t comment on it. thanks.

so you feel that i've changed alot? well. as i said, i dnt knw who you are. bt if you ask my friends, i am still th same person i am. maybe ive changed a little, who doesnt? dont tell me you're exactly th same as you were last year. thts impossible. everyone changes at least a little bit.

nd th part about how different i SMILE? omg. tht is so absurd. i really wonder who you are, are you stalking me or smth? why wld you even notice tht i smile differently?

okay. this post is not t diss you or anything. i just wnt you to knw tht if you have comments about me or if there's anything you wnt t share, just look me up. i really do not mind. just do not do such nonsensical things like tagging ostentatious balderdash on my tagboard because it really makes me pissed.

many thanks(: Dont write me off just yet,10:04 PM cry till there's no more tears
bloodshot eyes
scream into my pillow
but its still all empty inside.

went t jb yesterday. it was boring. bt yummy. haha. i had SO MANY THINGS to blog about. bt ive forgotton already. haha.

me: daddy.
daddy: yeah?
me: daddy.
daddy: yeah?
me: daddy.
daddy: yeahh..?
me: i think. i think i wnt t be a flower when i grow up.
daddy: mm..
*pauses*
daddy: wht kind?
me: i dnt knw. a really pretty one.
daddy: mm.. thts nice.
*silence*
MUMMY: WHHTTT RUBBISHH?

to hell with those horrible feelings
feeling so screwed up all th time
cnt even cry out in anguish
this time, there's no where t hide. Dont write me off just yet,7:05 PM haha. okay. i knew i said tht i wouldnt keep blogging. bt i cnt resist. because im happy. my stupid shite is baaaaccck!! LIMLIYI YOU STUPID SHITEE I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!! ((:

nd yes, my stupid shite is actually quite clever. she teaches me new stuff everyday!(:

i wouldnt last a moment without you;
bt i dnt like th music..
then i cnnt listen t mine.. /:
throw me a lifeline;
nice wht.boston
i wouldnt last a moment without you;
ahahah
bt i cnt listen t MINE
throw me a lifeline;
ahahah u cn press stop wht
i wouldnt last a moment without you;
WHERE?
throw me a lifeline;
next to refresh button
i wouldnt last a moment without you;
OHH
LIKE THT CN AH?
*silence*
i wouldnt last a moment without you;
OMG!
throw me a lifeline;
ahahah retarded
u din knw?
ahahhaha!
i wouldnt last a moment without you;
tht is sooooooooooo cool manzz!!!
throw me a lifeline
hahaha

haha! stupid shite is so clever! nd she always laughs at me//:
shu's coming back soon! whee!(:
nd nd! still check out th post below th post below this! haha(:

<3 ally Dont write me off just yet,3:13 AM haha. came back frm glory presbyaterian(shite i cnt spell) about 2 hrs ago. haha. was fun i guess. went home w amanda early because she wnted t catch th 9pm show. haha! i went w her because i didnt wnt t go home early. acting spastic nd disturbing simin on th bus(:

ive been doing nth bt t blog n blog nd blog summore lately. haha. bt i cnt resist, because i found a new quiz. dnt miss my last post thou. its a very very special one specially fr th pple i love. nd i spent almost nd hour blogging it. if you think you're special to me, go take a look nd find your name(:

ZEE QUIZ!

1.Name: Alyssa
2. Middle Name: none
3. Race: chinese
4. Religion: christian ;D
6. Male or Female: Female
7. Location: Singapore !
9. Occupation: Student
10. Initials:AT. haha
11. Screen Name: changes all th time

Your Appearance
12. Hair Color : Black
13. Hair Length: Below shoulder
14. Best Feature: umm.. i dnt knw. haha
15. Height: 155
16. Shoe size: 6 or 7?
17. Weight: average

-Your First
18. First best friend: eleanor. she's a darl(:
19. First Award: umm.. i really dnt knw. haha
20. First Sport You Joined: softball!((:
21. First thing you did today: talked t eliz. ;D
22: First thing you ate today: rice
23. First thing you said today: "hello? yeah. i was sleeping"
24. First Love: go figure honey

Favorites
25. Movie: no idea.
26. TV Show: america's next top model. sitcomes(:
27. Color: orange, limegreen,black,yellow,red
28. Band:haha.no idea.
29. Place to get groceries: uh.. ntuc?
30. Food: depends on my mood(:
31. Season: Summer
32. Candy: those sour red sweets thingies! haha. LOLLIPOPS! ;D
33. Sport: softball(:
34. Restaurant: cafe cartel ;D
35. Animal: dogs are th loves(:
36. Book: many. hee(:
37. Magazine: teenage, seventeen

38. Doing before you started this survey: watching tv
39. Thinking: i miss pple /:
40. Wearing: school shirt, shorts.
41. Crying bout: umm. haha. i didnt cry today ;p
42. Celebrity crush: haha. none at th moment.
43. Eating: nothing
44. Drinking: coke
45. Typing: uh. blogging
46. Listening To: im nt missing you
47. Thinking about: stuff
48. Wanting: you(:
49. Watching: 10p.m show(:
50. Where do you see yourself in 5 years: older, probably th same height. HAHA

51. Kids: preferably TWO
52. Want to be Married: wht kind of girl doesnt wnt to?
53. Career in Mind: journalist, counseller?

Which is Better with the Opposite Sex
54. Hair color: haha. doesnt matter
55. Hair length: short, bt nt too short. haha.
56. Eye color: doesnt matter
57. Measuremnts: taller than me ;D
58. Cute or sexy: haha. cute(: bt i dnt mind sexy ;D
59. Lips or Eyes: eyes
60. Hugs or Kisses: hugs
61. Short or Tall: tall.
62. Easygoing or serious: a bit of both? (:
63. Romantic or Spontaneous: i wnt both. haha
64. Good or Bad: wht about a bad goodboy? haha. or a good badboy ;p
65. Sensitive or spontaneous: BOTH LAA
66. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
67. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: hehe. trouble maker(:

Have You Ever
68. Kissed a Stranger:depends on how you define stranger. haha
69. Had surgery: No.
70. Gone commando: nah
71. Ran Away From Home: nope
72. Broken a bone: nope
73. Got an X-ray: Yes
74. Been on a cruise: uh huh
75. Got a car accident: never
76. Dumped someone: Yes
77. Cried When Someone Died: yeah
78. Cried At School: heck yeah.
79. Dated one of your best friends : uh huh.
80. Been arrested : nahh
81. Skinny-dipped : no way
82. Been on tv : yes.

Do You Believe In
83. God: Yes
81. Miracles: yes.
82. Love at First Sight: perhaps.
83. Ghosts: spirits honey, nt ghosts(:
84. Aliens: No
85. Soul Mates: Yes
86. Heaven: Yes
87. Hell: Yes
88. Answered prayers: Yes
89. Kissing on The First Date: why nt?
90. Horoscopes: Nah.

3 things you did today Random orders
91. go church
92. read stupid emo shite books ;p.
93. jogged

Sounds you can hear right now
94. music. tv.

Answer Truthfully
100. Is there someone you wish you had? :of course.

haha. okay. thts all fr tonight. (:
<3 ally. Dont write me off just yet,6:44 AM i feel lonely. nothing t at home. i regret waking up early, it makes th day seem t last so long. i suddenly have a deep longing fr sch. as in a normal sch day. w everyone there.

it hit me tht next year will never be th same again. we'll be sec 3, the clique will be splited up. people will change, nd many of us will drift apart. so before we drift too far, i shall talk abt all th pple i love.

haha. in alphabetical order. no biasness(:

alfee
my dear, you've been a blessing t me this year. you always make me laugh nd cheer me up. had lots of fun w you during clash, never forget th times we had. laughing nd crying together. if you actually leave stmargs, im gg t miss you alot alot. (:

angeline
even though we dont really talk much anymore. im really glad t have got t know you this year. you're always chirpy nd saying cute things. nd i rmb th time we did th bday board together, it was fun. our little outings were always fabulous(:

aly
my twin! so glad t be friends w you this year. i dnt knw wht t say, bt i always have fun when im w you (:

beatrice
honey! we've been in th same class fr 2 years running nw. if god allows it, hopefully we will be in th same class again fr sec3&4. eng, home ec, art whtever, we always have lots of fun talking nd playing. you've always been a joy t talk to nd such an encouragement. i love talking to you my dear! (:

belinda
you're always there fr me. nd we had so much fun this year. slacking in class, talking, singing eyecandying etc. an unforgettable year. i love you! (:

celina
haha! i remember how we always get into trouble together nd stuff. eng,home ec n art is always fun w you arnd. us talking rubbish w bea nd everything. doing silly things nd laughing like crazy. i miss you lots! (:

chankim
you quiet little thing! you've been a great seating partner! thanks fr always helping me out(:

cherry
my dearest confidante! even though we didnt land in th same class this year, we still remained close as ever! i dnt knw wht i'd ever do without you honey! w all th camwhoring nd eyecandying. you're always there when i need you. loves!

chai chai
my dear. i remember th time when we first met. first day of sch! nd we already talked like we were old friends. you've always been steady nd dependable, frm th very start. nd i appreciate you alot my dear! (:

crispin
wht else cn i say kor? you've been my tutor, my clown nd my counseller fr th past 2 years. i wouldnt have been able t get past some really bad times without you. (:

elizabeth
we grew so much closer after stmargs! nd im glad tht nw we're nt only second cousins, bt also friends. chatting till way past midnight at outrageous times. gossipping nd sharing secrets. wht more cld i ask for? i love you. ((:

germaine
even though we've been in th same class fr 2 years, we only became friends this year. nd it was super cool t knw you in a different way. i love th way you tell us stories in class. its classic. you're always fun t be around, we've had so much FUN this year together (:

gen
my lovely sistaa. we dont always get t talk much. bt i always enjoy chatting w you. we still havent had our date out yet! bt soon yeah? you've been a great encouragement t me at times nd a wonderful friend. ((:

jane
haha. okay. so after all th funny funny awkward stuff, we finally became friends. haha. nd nw i laugh at th times when i rmb tht i didnt like you very much. haha. we always have fun times together. secrets nd stuff. come back quickly yeah? i miss you! (:

jerrica
we've had fun this year! at your party, confessions, nd hanging after sch! you're a fabulous friend t have. nd i enjoyed all th times we talked together nd stuff. we have t meet up soon again okay? (:

jiahui
you've been a great senior. even though we quarrel here nd there. bt it always turns out okay right? haha (:

jockay
mummaye! i havent talked t you in so long. bt you've really been a blessing. no one cn ever take your place. i remember when we talked about god together nd checked th bible. nd how you're always th one who entertains us nd produces a laugh when we're down. you're one of a kind! i love you! (:

karen
hunniex! haha. also known as my szb2! haha. we havent knwon each other fr very long bt fr th time tht we did, we had so much fun! slacking in chi. gg t gui di fang. nd doing all sorts of rubbish together.

kellsie
my favourite junior! after all this time, so many things have changed. nd i havent talked t you in a long long time. bt still, i remember all th times during clash. how we sat tgt in th room nd just cried out hearts out together. nd how we traded secrets. i love you lots honey! (:

kellice
haha. finacee darling. we always talk rubbish nd do idiotic stuff together. even though we cldnt hang out much after clash ended, i still miss you lots (:

leanne
we've been in the same class fr 2 years! even though we're nt as close as last year, i still appreciate you alot. i rememeber how you've been such a great encouragement t me. urging me t continue praying nd talking t god. i love you!(:

liyi
haha. my stupid shite! we've had a really long year huh? never thought tht we'd actually become friends, bt nw we are. nd i appreciate you alot my dear! laughing at all th silly rumours flying anrd in sch nd purposely trying t cause a scandal. haha. nd nd, having fun in our expeditions drinking nd eyecandying pple! haha. i love you! (:

marion
sweetheart! havent known you fr tht long either. bt you, me nd hunniex have had lots of fun together in chi. camwhoring when lao shi's nt arnd nd stuff. nd i rmb th time when you helped me t do my blogskin! thankyou sweetheart! you're a jewl(:

nathalie
senior! even though i dnt talk t you much now a days. you've been a laugh nd always cheer me up. your bright nd optimistic attitude always brightens up my day! ive had fun w you! (:

nicolette
we've had so much fun together with the clique! remember how we used t do silly things, hanky pankying in home ec, being late fr class, only doing last min preparation fr presentations etc? haha. you're always making us laugh w your funny actions nd expressions. i miss you! (:

ramya
haha. you've always been th sarcastic yet funny one. i remember us at recess always talking and lauughing. and you "eee-ing" at our retarded actions. this year was a great one w you around(:

sasha
its been enriching being arnd you. haha. with all your sick jokes nd mind boggling information. i enjoy chatting w you so much. laughing like crazy asses nd doing stupid things. i miss you!(:

shuhada
shushu! we've been through so much this year. nd we've gone past them all! hhaha. i love having you around. always talking nd stuff. thanks fr being there(:

sj
havent known you fr a long time bt its always fun w you. you always cheer me up nd make me laugh when im down. haha. nd i love it when you sing fr me. you make my day(:

simin
jie! we've grown closer this year. nd had such a great time! even thou we always get into trouble. it was worth it. i love you alot alot! (:

sonia
haha. even though we dont talk much anymore. i rmb a period of time whr you'd always cheer me up nd make me laugh when i was feeling really lousy. aww. im gg t miss you when you graduate next year! you take care yeah mao! (:

wanda
we dnt talk as much as we did last time. bt its always fun t chat w you because we cn chat about anything. haha. nd we've had lots of fun doing tolley events! rmb national day? retarded. bt at least it was fun (:

wansing
haha! rmb hw we always try t cram alst min fr exams n tests together? nd how they dnt always work? haha. ohh well. being w you is always a laugh. nd during clash when we had t try t get out of homework nd stuff. haha! i miss you wansing!(:

2E6
this year as a class, we've accomplished so much together. even though not th whole class excelled in studies, we've proved it t others tht we're united nd bonded well. camp was so fun. nd we won th mass stretch comp, th debate nd the amazing race thingy during camp. no matter wht, all teachers always says tht we're refreshing nd vocal. thts wht i love about 2e6. we're always sticking up fr each other. im really gg t miss you guys! ((:

THECLIQUE

i remember how we always have so much fun during recess. always running up t class because we'd be late. changing seats during english nd art, laughing because mr lim either doesnt notice or doesnt care. doing projects nd presentations together. how most of th time our team gets th most laughs. how we always congregate together during free periods t talk nd do spastic things. you'll be dearly missed. i love you guys! (:

haha. so thts all fr nw. i hope i havent forgotton anyone! my brain does has a limited storage space you knw. haha. im really gg t miss everyone alot.
i love you darlings.

love ally(:

Labels: i'll keep you in my heart

Dont write me off just yet,11:48 PM Dont write me off just yet,6:30 PM ripped this frm nat fern's blog. haha. bored, so shall do it(:

instructions: name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.
dont read the questions below before you write and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1) elizabeth
2) cherry
3) liyi
4) gen
5) belinda
6) beatrice
7) jockay
8)jane chai
9) shuhada
10) jane liew
11) cheryl v
12) crispin
13) nat fern
14) amanda
15) jiahui
16) germaine
17) Shireen
18) simin
19) victoria
20) nicolette

How did you meet 14?
(AMANDA) i really have no idea. haha. through friends i think.(:

What do you do if you never ever meet 1?
(ELIZABETH) i wouldnt be who i am nw. haha(:

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
(NICOLETTE & SHUHADA). i'd faint nd die. thts really disgusting.

Did you ever like 19?
(VICTORIA) WHT LIKE? I LOVE HER (:

Would 6 and 1 make a good couple?
(ELIZABETH& BEATRICE) haha. i cnt see it happening.

Describe 3.
(LIYI) my stupid shite. i love her ((:

Do you think 8 is attractive?
(JANE CHAIl) yeahh. she's lovely(:

Say smt abt 7.
(JOCKAY) a rare friend! entertainer((:

Do you know any of 12's family members?
(CRISPIN ) his mummy is nice! ((:

What's 18's favourite?
(SIMIN) i knw this! bball! ((:

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
(CHERYL V) haha. tht would be kinda scary (:

What language does 15 speak?
(JIAHUI) Cchi nd eng?

Who is 9 going out with?
(SHUHADA) no one i knw

How old is 16 now?
(GER)14.

When was the last time you talked to 13?
(NAT FERN) i have no idea(:

Who's 2's favourite band/singer?
(CHERRY) i really dnt knw

Would you date 4?
(GEN) no way. she's my sista((:

Would you date 7?
(JOCKAY) haha. nahh.

Is 15 single?
(JIAHUI) uh huh(:

What's 10's last name?
(JANE LIEW) err. liew. haha (:

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 14?
(AMANDA) haha. even a relationship is impossible. dnt talk abt a serious one. haha(:

What school does 3 go to?
(LIYI) stmargs(:

Tag 5 people to do this survey.
aiya. im lazy. whoever wnt t do just do laa!
haha!

thts all fr nw darlings!
<3 ally; Dont write me off just yet,5:41 AM heyy darlings! im back frm thailand! haha. bet you guys missed me loads havent you? ((:

havent blogged in quite a while. went t amanda's church last fri. saw jh. haha. had fun there. her church pple are funny (:

thailand was nice. bt super super super super super hot. haha. i bought lots of stuff. nd we went snorkelling(: bt th snorkelling wasnt as good as th one in aussie. haha!

i was actually gg t give you guys a detailed description on th trip. but im VERY LAZY. so i shall not. haha. posting pics when my computer's up again. using my aunt's comp nw (:

anyw. today went t have lunch w my mum. took th wrong bus, no thanks t her(my mum), wasted 2 hours of my youth. nd nearly died while crossing th road. haha. ohh well.

nd nd! someone mistakened me fr a japanese tourist today! haha. i think thts kinda cool. nd all this while everyone says tht my daddy looks jap. since i look like him.. HAHA! YAYSERS! ((:

yeahhh. cherry honey. dnt feel too terrible. you've apologised, lets hope they knw tht you're sincere. its alright babe. i love you loads(:

i missed you so much baby! so much i thought i'd cry.
so glad t be back
home's whr you are
(: Dont write me off just yet,7:06 PM today was a happy day. went t th library w cherry! haha. Borrowed lots of lovely books. hehe. I always have fun w cherry. laughing like crazy shites in th library nd causing old ladies t shush us. Haha

Later on we left so tht we could eat lunch. Haha. Ate at macs! Haha. Th childish side of us took over nd we purchased happy meals! Hehe. Th toys were kinda cute. Bt I forgot t snap a pic of them. Camwhored all th way.



foooooood! we were hungry((:























yes, im famous fr cutting myself out of th picture ;p



















im out again. haha ;p


















YAY! im in! haha. nt totally, bt still! (:






















haha. after much effort ((:

















ohh. nd thts cherry eating ((:

















anyway. after tht. we headed into th mall t walk fr a little while. then we went t take prints! haha. was damn fun. we took 2 times. which nearly burnt a hole in my wallet. bt they were nice! sad thing was, i only managed t take pics of some of th nice ones nd th rest are "nt so nice". haha. anyway, here they are ((:
((:
























yeah. the spastic one. haha.

















i like these two((:

















haha. i thought these two were really cute ((:


















anw. the rest i didnt get a chance t snap down. bt there were reaaaallly nice ones. if you ask me really nicely, i'll show them t you. HAHA! after tht we went t walk again. after a while, cherry was hungry so we went t mos! haha. no surprises wht we did there. she ordered stuff t eat. nd we CAMWHORED. haha! ((: nd here they are ((:

i swear i had no idea wht i was doing ;p

















yes. i knw my hair sucks here.

















while waiting fr her (:






















her CORN SOUP! haha (:

















whoops. nw SHE gt cut out. ;p






















trying t smile like her. w TEETH ;D

















her trying t smile like ME (:



















just being ourselves(:

being spas

OYAKO RICE BURGER. i dnt knw wht it is. bt it looks nice. im gg t eat it next time ((:

anw. after tht. we cabbed t serene t meet del n jia. haha. we took a MERCEDES CAB! haha. it was damn nice. nd th taxi driver was SO FUNNY! haha. he kept talking t us nd stuff. haha. of course we cldnt resist taking pics in th taxi too (:

the first.

dishevelled hair due t too much laughing ;p

haha. funny wht boredom does t pple ;p

yeah okay. i gt cut out again.. //:

i love her! alot alot ((:

i think this was th best shot. thou blurred (:

the funny taxi uncle! he was nice((:

FINALLY! TH TAXI! ((:









Dont write me off just yet,6:07 AM i actually had lots t blog about. bt nw, i losted my mood. so yeah. nt really in a good mood. BT BT BT! outing tmr w cherry! *jumps fr joy* we finally get t go out. hallelujah! i love her so much((:

my baby, my best, my love.
i love you(: Dont write me off just yet,8:54 PM ly's back! yay. i missed her((: maybe gg back t sch on fri t "check results". haha. thts nt my real motive, i just need an excuse t get out of the house((:

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i love you too (: Dont write me off just yet,3:46 PM jane left this morning. i chatted w her last night nd called her just before she left this morning. im gg t miss you lots girl//: chatted w sj last night too. haha. she sang fr me a few songs too. nice(: haha. im feeling nice today, so i shall write nice things. haha. was happy. sj, you made my day. i love it when you sing ((:

another day at home today. just slacking. suddenly thought of POG. thought of th people there, th environment, nd all th fun i used t have w them. i feel so homesick fr pog. so home sick fr YE, even thou it doesnt exist anymore. because nw its vibrantyouth. everyone there has moved on. they've progressed nd grown. i feel so left behind.

sometimes i really wonder, wht is God doing? why did you have t take me away? away frm them. th people tht i loved. th place whr i grew up, somewhere whr i was comfortable. were you trying t test me or smth? or have i already failed th test? it has already been 1 an a half years. nd im still stuck here. missing POG, nt gg t church regularly. wht is wrong w me?

i just miss POG. th fellowship, th fun. nd i miss how close God used t be. bt now?

i admit it.
im nt even a christian anymore.
i sldnt even call myself one. Dont write me off just yet,1:53 PM eeyerr. sucky day again. i helped mummy do th christmas deco. it was fun i guess. bt th thought of another christmas just like tht? no church, no nothing. so meaningless. bt i guess, im nt worthy of it anyway.

goshh. im sorry okay? i really am.
you guys arent umimportant t me at all.
both of you are so so so so so important t me.
really really.
please dnt be mad.
//: Dont write me off just yet,2:44 PM espionage.
sweetened poison
you dnt feel it.

lousy lousy feelings again. i feel so goddamned LOUSY. i swear tht i wont swear today. i hope? i wnt t be a better person. yeah okay. CLICHE. i knw. bt i really do //:

joy brought an interesting thing t my attention. think of th word believe wont you? when someone asks you to believe them, its a call of trust right? it means tht no matter wht, you'll trust tht this person is being true.

now, think about th word believe again, nd look at th spelling. believe. or even the word belief. funny how a word tht signifies trust cn have a hidden word like tht huh?

the best part about believing is tht there's always a lie in between.

ironic isnt it?

darkness nd vice goes hand in hand
im not rebellious
you just dont understand. Dont write me off just yet,4:26 PM chatted w jiahui n alfee till LATEE last night. woke up so damn early. was so tired throughout th whole day. still am. went fr tui. goshh. i dnt understand why must i be forced into tht hellhole fr lessons 2 hrs a week because it doesnt help tht much. everyone just stones, do exercises, stone, nd do more exercises. whee. NOT HELPING.

haha. many thanks t th people who cheered me up yesterday nd today. ally loves you guys loads(:
<3 Dont write me off just yet,3:42 PM gt home frm town abt an hour ago
came home early
super tired, very sleepy
step up was good (:
nt in th mood t blog, maybe later.

i miss you baby
happy 2months. Dont write me off just yet,5:30 PM i dnt knw.
i didnt answer because i need time to think.
i still love you baby
bt you make me feel so insecured. Dont write me off just yet,8:18 PM what if it all falls apart?
i cnt do without you.
bt i dnt knw if i should try again.
<3 Dont write me off just yet,3:41 PM i cnt belive it. this is th first time we quarelled. its like so unreal. i just cnt stand it anymore. why must you do tht? nd right in front of me too. it hurts.

ilu
bt i wonder if you'll be true to me. Dont write me off just yet,3:34 PM stayed over at ahyi's hse on tue. had fun. used comp till abt 12. then we cooked maggie mee. haha. later i plaited baby's whole hair into little braids. it was rather cute(: we slept arnd 2.

baby cldnt wake up th next morning. haha. i woke up late too. feifei came over as usual. he's so adorable. haha. we fed him. lazed arnd a little. then bathed n prepared t go out. had lunch at clementi. then walked arnd. later on went back t ahyi's hse. then went home at night. haha.

&& all th pple who recieved my msg last night saying nt t msg me because my fone is gg t get confiscated? haha. false alarm. its nt confiscated YET. it'll be confiscated next monday-friday. haha. (:

i made a new friend yesterday! she's nice(: Dont write me off just yet,11:54 AM you want t break me
bt its not so easy anymore
you could always tear down th wall i built around my heart
bt not this time.
this time is different
you cnt get t me anymore
i wont let you

i feel lousy. lousy piece of shite. i wnt t get out of this house. im like so homebound nw. pfft. i hate this. alot. dammit laa.

ask me no questions nd i'll tell you no lies. Dont write me off just yet,2:58 PM shite. ive been having e really bad gastric pains since th last two hours or so.
they really hurt.
/: Dont write me off just yet,9:27 PM went towning w my mum today. had lunch at marriot and then went t watch DOA. i dnt knw why pple say its a bimbo show. haha. cos i liked it. (: i feel like gg out in th following days. been so boring. i miss people. HAHA (:

lemon tinted kisses; Dont write me off just yet,6:43 PM gt this frm loretts, decided t do it cos im rather free.(:

1. Who is the last person you high-fived?
god knows, i dont. HAHA(:

2. If you were drafted into a war, would yousurvive?
probably not laa, ive no survival skills.

3. do you ever fall asleep with the tv on?
all th time

4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of thecarton?
uh huh

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
YES!! (:

6. How fast can you type?
average

7. Are you afraid of the dark?
all th time

8. Eye color?
dark brown

9. Worst fear?
losing pple i love

10. When is the last time you bathed ?
just?

11. Do you knock on wood?
im nt supersitious. haha

12. Are you drinking anything right now?
nah

13. Are you attractive?
HAHA. am i? (:

14. Can you hoola hoop?
<3s

15. Are you good at keeping secrets?
uh huh

16. What do you want for Christmas?
YOU((:

17. Do you know the Muffin Man:
YES YES I DO! he's so adorable (((:

18. Do you talk in your sleep?
all th time

20. Who wrote the book of love?
i wldnt knw wld i?

21. Have you ever flown a kite?
uh huh

24. how many people are on your contact listof your cell?
200 or so

25. Have you ever asked for a pony?
UH. right. LIKE I WLD.

26. Plans for tomorrow?
homebound.

27. Can you juggle?
no way.

28. Missing someone now?
uh huh.

29. When was the last time you toldsomeone 'I love you' and really meant it?
yesterday? haha. i always mean it .

31. How are you feeling today?
numb.

32. Are you black?
do i look black t you?

33. Have you ever been suspended orexpelled from school?
never.

34. What are you looking forward to?
there's nth worth looking fw t.

35. Have you ever crawled through awindow?
yeah.

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
nopes.

38. Can you handle the truth?
dnt really have a choice do i? HA.

39. Do you like ham?
i guess so.

40. What 3 things can always be found inyourrefrigerator?
i wldnt knw. food? ;p

41. Any cool scars?
eww. no. since when were scars cool?

42. Do you like or have a crush on anyone?
maybe?

43. How many kids do you plan on having?
haha. two? (:

44. What do you do when no one iswatching?
wht cn i do?

45. Are you in love?
w a great number of things.yes.haha.

46. Do you talk to yourself?
uh huh.this is embarassing okay.

47. Do you like dancing?
yes(((((((:

48. Three of your favorite tv shows:
sitcoms! almost all ;p

49. Two things about the opposite sex thatappeal to you:
haha. i'll be shallow. th looks LAA. haha .

50. Who are you thinking about right now?
people.

51. Who did you last talk to on the phone?
shu.

52. Where is your phone?
beside me.

53. What was the last thing you ate?
siew mai (:

54. What is your favorite color?
orange

.55. What is the last movie watched?
death note .

56. What song do you currently listen to?
when you say nth at all.

57. Are you currently suffering from a brokenheart?
haha. of course nt. why wld i be?

HAHA.yah. thts all. im bored. nd i miss pple //: Dont write me off just yet,5:56 PM dad, get off my back will you? yeah okay, i knw im a shite daughter. w wht you call crap results, im useless and have a shite attitude t boot. since im never gg t amount t anything anyway, why not you just throw me out of th house? leave me on th streets t starve? i'll die prety quickly, and all th burdens will be lifted off your shoulder. sounds utopia-ish doesnt it?

GO AWAY. far away. Dont write me off just yet,4:15 PM haha. been feeling quite perky these few days. sleeping late n waking up early. chatted w belle last night. then went t bed. bt cldnt sleep, so msged. jane called. we chatted a while. then conferenced w her n sj. haha. was kinda fun. talk talk talk. fr rather long. then jane put down. chatted w sj fr a while more. she sang fr me another perfect day then went t sleep. HAHA. ive fallen in love w tht song. its PRETTY((:

yups. later ahyi and th rest coming over fr dinner. at last. i missed them(: Dont write me off just yet,12:16 AM intoxicated
all drunkened up with misery
searing flames igniting
cruising through your body
drunkened blindess
an escape when feelings are low
my heart bleeding, yours relishing
the moment, lefted out in th cold
conscince flying out of th window
and plenty of deceit
i was slow to see the truth
because my love fr you was too deep
what was yesterday is today
and tomorrow will have been
feel the fear but do it anyway
its not like its a sin
bullets, fast and painless death
be quick, and i'll be gone
yo usaid never again
but look, people still mourn
hangover
it tells me, pull yourself together
but i rather be drunk tonight
than be beset with troubles when sober
i rather let the alcohol take over
erase the pain away
claim solace from my solitude
before i fade away.

dont try to pull her back Dont write me off just yet,2:49 PM today was a boring day. blahh. cherry made me laugh, i love tht girl. haha. and sj sang fr me two pretty songs. i like(:

haha. as fr other pple. please get th hint. i dnt wnt t talk t you, so stop talking t me please(:

nd i cnt stand hw some pple think tht th whole world revovles arnd them. like hello? being egotistical is like, not rare. bt still. haha. (:

i knw i knw. im a narcissist too. bt at least i dnt go overboard. Dont write me off just yet,7:45 PM chatted w nat, she so cheered me up today! haha. got super high chatting(: she gave me th link fr blogthings, went crazy doing them ;p haha. yay! i love nat(:

i miss you guys so much /:

JANE LIEW JIA WEN! WHERE TH HELL ARE YOU? WHY ARENT YOU PICKING UP YOUR FONE?! /: Dont write me off just yet,5:19 PM