wahh todayy is damn hot lolx so glad that im home =) after prodots left sch immediately walked all e wayy to e bus stop in e HOT SUN bleahh something wrong wif my fone! cant sms! duno wads wrong frm jus now untill now sending keep fail sian -.-''

yeahhs w

yeahhs

was trying to call eden all e way

she keep nv pick up

if not den is pick up n put down

-.-

yeahhs

FINALLY

wen i reach my bus stop den she pick up

pheww

if not i wldnt haf gone her sch le

hahas

yeahh

so den took bus to her sch

stepped in at exactly 4.00

waited

n waited

N WAITED

some bitches came to bitch at me

-.-''

bitched back

:p

yeahhs

security ask so many questions

lalalas

den i think their DM come talk to me

say blah blah

but den later got sum girls walk by

then he go scold dem

den go scold sum boys

lol

den forgot all about me

whee!

=p

lol

waited for her for TWENTY MIn

tell u man

i was feeling damn hot

ughh

ohh yeahh

saw prawn walk by

wahahahs

but he din see me

lol

blind

he's still taking e same bag loh!

lolx

den

eden finally cum out

haiis

after so long

sian lohh

make me so hot man

den we walk to her sch e macs

sit down

den later i cum hme lohh

hahas

yahh

nothing much ba

gotta do e prodots thingy

n e course work now

byeee

=)

Dont write me off just yet,5:27 PM

lalalas talkin on e fone wif desiree now haha long time nv talk to her again lolx yeahhs later goin ta watch css! yay lolx but liz n cherry wun be there -.-'' yeahhs was so irritated wif evageline jus now why mus she always act so immatured! come on lohhs aiyahh also dun wana say wad she didd say also sian i mean ok i know that she's in sec1 but she's the same age as us loh! why cant she grow up! -.-'' bleahh todayy's chem's test was ok lahhs but sum parts difficult -.- but hopefully can at least at 70%? hope so yeahhs so sian dun feel lyk blogging byeee

Dont write me off just yet,5:05 PM

hello ok i duno how to start this morn woke up read for a lil while blahh blahh mum nagged stood for a bigg lecture for lyk e wad? thousand and twenty eighth time? heard it all before wonder why she even bothers bleahh gets so irritating l yk i dont know what i haf to do lyk that and yes for e duno millonth time FINE! IM IMMATURED UNSENSIBLE AND TOTALLY UNRESPONSIBLE! FINE! ughh wadever cann.. well yeahhs went down to eat wanton mee for lunch came back up played piano till my fingers hurt lyk shit ok they STILL HURT but i got e part of B1 right alr hahas havent got it down for weeks hmmz.. guess i sld practice more practiced for one hr todayy and its nearly READY hahas after piano jus studied for sci abit for e chem test but nothing much to study so was kinda sian sian haf a CME presentation on MON but i probably wun be presenting due to the large amount of pple doin yeahhs suppose to be working on it now im "waiting for inspiration" to hit me hahas hmmz.. there's sumthing wrong wif me realized recently if i sit down n concentrate on something for a long time say for example if im jus reading or watching tv or jus simply stoning and i get up i'll get very giddy and feel very faint most of e time half my vision will be gone n i'll feel lyk fainting duno whyy dad say cos maybe low blood pressure eee.. duno lehhs all i know is that its super irritating and kinda scary sumtimes i came THAT close to fainting again dun wana it HURTS to hit the floor ok :( well yeahhs now alone at hme AT LAST whee im lyk free yeahhs was trying to find sum pics of roly, annabel n hannah jus now but cldnt find i rmb before we left aussie i took lyk hundereds of photos of them in my garden and my stupid sister HAD TO KEEP IT so now its lyk DUNO WHERE bleahh but saw sum aussie pic ohh goshh! i miss australia! to BITS! MISS MY HOUSE THERE! AND MY DARLINGS! *sniff* wana go visit them hahas show u a pic of my darlings i found ONLI ONE! aint they adorable? ilove them to bits! e darkest one is hannah center one is my DARLING! ROLY! hahas and e middle colured one on e right hand side is ANNABEL! my babies :D miss them!

Dont write me off just yet,2:25 PM

BOO jus got hme hahas had a long long day lessons were SUPER BORING had chi test todayy it was damn hard pls! din understand a single thing i was reading jus hoping by God's grace that i'll be able to at least pass :D im telling u mann after recess all e lessons were damn boring IH MATHS N SCIENCE SIAN AH lol den had assembly was ok ba hahas but still abit sian got a bit issue todayy apparently, some st margs's gal ordered FIFTY FIVE packets of cha kuey tiao frm an old man at farrer market said that she'll collect it TODAYY at 12p.m and he trusted her NO DEPOSIT of course, she did not cum back the poor old man walked frm FARRER MARKET ALL THE WAY TO OUR SCH [which is about 4 or 5 busstops away to those who dun know] in the HOT SUN CARRYING ALL 55 PACKETS OF CHA KUEY TIAO trying to find the girl im telling u ok that is jus cruel if he was a young man its alr so horrible le BUT i saw that man ok he was so old look so damn frail very small size can u jus imagin it? him lugging 55 PACKETS OF CHA KUEY TIAO

all e way to our sch?

did i mention that he had to WALK

that girl sld jus die

yeahh

in e end

loads of st margs girls

including joy n i

went to buy e cha kuey tiao

and i haf to say this

i dont even lyk cha kuey tiao

i jus did it out of compassion

AND

it rely wasnt nice

-.-

yeahhs

had e acting auditions todayy

was damn fun lohh

i had to pair up wif simran

it was rely rely fun

i wasnt freaked out at all

hahas

duno why

i jus felt so calm

and it was SO FUN

lolx

yeahh

but one thing im very glad

e singing auditions is postphoned to next week!

whee!

hahas

thats rely good cos then i can rechoose e songs im going to sing

lol

i mean rely

they onli told us yesterday lohhs

rely unreasonable

lolx

yeahhs

after that dad came to fetch me

all went to sum place to eat

yeahhs

den come hme lahhs

hahhas

tada!

that's my day

:D

Dont write me off just yet,8:37 PM

BOO jus got hme hahas todayy was fun! yipee! lol started off as a normal dayy cld hardly open my eyes when i woke up dragged myself to sch had mass stretch eww i hate it pls! disgusting but kick boxing is fun :p after that had mother tongue umm.. it was ok lahhs tml of mt test but its general paper so dun need to study got back IH paper! e first one i got 15/20! yay! hahas but e second one isnt out yet but for sci paper 1.. onli got 27/40 :'( hope i do better for e practical hmmz.. yeahhs last two periods were maths mr tan wasnt here todayy! whee! lol we jus slacked i cont reading "the heavenly man" its such a great book! love it to bits nearly made me cry onli nearly. :) hahas after sch went to sis's sch wif liz n cherry hahas went to find geraldine cos they know her hahas she's rely nice :) chao pretty cann! im damn jealous :p hahas yeahhs later went to e macs at clementi ate lunch den went back to e sch n waited for sis yupps we took taxi hme! hahas so song but mus pay *ouchh* hahas but worth it :) later going plaza to eat dinner byee

Dont write me off just yet,4:07 PM

hellos jus got hme yupps did my piano hw and here i am :d nice to be hme nice and early lol feel so tired since of late. i am lyk so dead as soon as this term end i am SO DEAD ok i am lyk.. totally getting a C or if im LUCKY a B for maths for ca1 chi? lets not talk abt it eng? i have nothing to say IH? i hope and pray i'll get sumthing decent BUT the test was bloody difficult -.-'' home ec? at least ONE a but its onli HOME EC! BIG DEAL! [not..] sci? recieved on of e papers todayy 67 point somthing % ok but not A!! lucky there's still practical paper but umm.. heard that many pple failed for that -.-'' and there's still a chem testi this mon mus pull up marks!!! *sigh* being a student NOW is such a pain bleah.. piano lesson later.. chaox..

Dont write me off just yet,3:14 PM

back hme yupps slacking on e comp gotta sprint off when mum comes hme lol yeahhs dad told me to call him when she rings the bell den he'll use e comp while i open e door muahahaha lol todayy IH test was a terror im sure that i did badly :'( going to be grounded was told that if i do badly for ca1, i would be so i guess that kidna confirms it but im pretyt sure that i got ONE a lol for hme ec :D got 80.2%! :p lalas better go off now or i\ll be dead before u can say YOUR DEAD lol byee

Dont write me off just yet,7:17 PM

woahh jus had a super pissing dayy bleahh super super pissed and tired up till e extend that my fingers are so tired i can hardly type woke up burshed teeth read newspaper starting studying for IH ct about 12:30 ate lunch 1.00 studied again finished at about 2:30 wash shoes packed up the WHOLE OF THE STUDY ROOM regardless whether it was my stuff or sis's after all THAT a voice ringed in my ear " WHOLE DAY NEVER STUDY AHH YOU! GO PLAY YOUR PIANO!" -.-'' pissed off lah i was lyk working for e whole day pls! sitll kena scolded den played piano e guy who came to fix our air con came kena scream at again " STOP PLAYING LA! SO DAMN NOISY!" that i rely fa huo loh first ask me to play den say i noisy wad is her bloody problem! den later scream at me AGAIN " WHY YOU NV PLAY PIANO! GO PLAY NOW!" my goshh.. what the hell do you take me for?? blahh in other words horrible horrible disgust

Dont write me off just yet,3:46 PM

BOO hehe was going to blog jus now but there was sumthing wrong wif blogger hmmz.. hahas yeahhs todayy was great but i slept late last night so was super tired in class now for sci we're doing out chem component out chem teacher is miss ng! yes! at last not miss tan! hahas dun get me wrong i dont have anything against ms tan but she's jus so soft i cant hear a single word thatcomes out frm her mouth lolx i duno if miss ng is nice or not but ohh well guess we're going to find out hehe yeahhs she's goin to take us for physics too ewww i hate physics hahas yeahhs but was so tired that i nearly fell aslp in sci hahas yeahhs my eyelids keep drooping i keep tryin to keep them open at one time i opened my eyes hahas and i din even know when i closed them! i think for quite long nehx hahas but lucky ms ng nv see :p in chi class lao shi make all of us back students move to the VERY FRONT sian sia feel so weird lolx but its true lah we RELY dun pay attention at e back so i guess its good lahh time to buck up in chi! :D yupps got back my maths test im so disgusted with myself dun know wad's wrong wif me lohhs first maths test did horribly second maths test promised that i'd listen in class i duno wads wrong i RELY did listen but i jus cldnt understand i think i was lyk the last one to understand e damn concept so bloody difficult but this test wad happened? i got e exactly same marks as e first one!! ok i passed but i wanted AT LEAST a 70% yeahh? missed my taret by 2 marks and 10% sucks 2 marks can make all e difference i got 18/30 AGAIN my chi isnt good AT ALL eng has been deproving lyk SIAO sci is okok... bleahh.. IH.. idont even wan to think abt it! im such a freak why am i born to be such a SLOW person my maths haf always been good WHAT HAPPEN TO MY BRAIN?? lets face it im such a loser

Dont write me off just yet,8:37 PM

jus got hme hahas todayy was a semi-good day hehe yeahhs fell alsp at abt 11:30 last night cos chatted wif joy until 11 lyk that hahas was super tired when i woke up dad wasnt up yet so i woke him up lolx i jus rmb-ed how much i miss my bed! hahas its nice sleeping at ahyi's hse but my bed is still e best! :D hehe yeahhs was very letargic at sch cld hardly keep my eyes open i was mentally chanting to myself "pay attention!" but hahas.. cldnt rely im such a naughty girl jus duno why i cant focus in chi! even if i dont talk i jus stone and its so scary when teacher asks question cos i duno! better buck up in chi! yupps after sch went to macs wif tric, leanne, n freya hahas ate lunch den did zerocarbon project lolx had loads of fun took lyk 5 videos of leanne n freya being childish lolx it was ridiculous seriously. dey act lyk KIDS wif one another hahas and its suppose to be the "all so great leanne" and "sensible prefect freya"! hahas guess that proves everyone wrong! lol tric n i threatened them hehe that if they start getting mean, we'll broadcast wad we filmed! lol hahas it was lyk " u better not do that you two.. you'll regret it!" "ohh yeahh? wad u gona do?" hahas.. we laughed and jus said "hmmz.. well. we can jus burn the film to a few cds. lets say.. mm.. maybe about 500 disks? and jus you know, give them out to pple for free?" lol they totally freaked out whee! :p lol yeahhs den saw cherry n elizabeth yeahhs freya tric n leanne went first so i sat wif them two for a while took pics hahas crapped loads was nice to talk to them again ever since we got into new classes, havent had much time to hang wif them yeahhs lol we sat on e horse ride thingy for lil kids hahas cherry persuaded me to lol i looked so ridiculous sitting on a kiddy ride! hahas but gotta admit it was a teensy weensy bit of fun! :P lolx yeahhs after that took bus to cck sec to wait for eden yupps while waiting for her saw sum pri sch peeps hahas reconigse their face but have no idea who they are hehe lol yeahhs their sch is damn nice lohh *envy* to think i cld haf been studying here! so not fair can! lol saw bunnie too when we left e sch hahas he say cant reco me in my sch u bleahh after that forced eden to go wif me to sunshine plaza cos had ta return e e mo zai zhen bian vcd wahh that vcd super nice to watch loh! so lan man! :D hahas yeahhs after all that jus talk to eden on e bus etc etc miss her loads lyk super long nv meet her le i miss eden! *sobx* hahas yupps den got hme le lohh saw all e things that mum n dad bouhgt for us in HK hhaas yay! i got: -3 new tops -one jeans -one jacket[for hol, so nice! white col de!] -one pair of shoes[chao nice! :)] - 2 hp keychains - one handbag[ hmmz.. ok lahhs.. but i wanted sling bag! :(] hahas i think thats abt all? lol but happy wor :d they also bought majong set! whee! finally! *whoops* hahas dun get me wrong wo shi hao hai zi i dont gamble! :D hahas yeahhs gotta go do e zerocarbon project now due tml! lol onli started todayy! hehe we're such good girls arent we? lol byee!

Dont write me off just yet,7:21 PM

confessions i am grateful to have shelter over my head food to eat and money in my pocket because other pple may not even haf a place to sleep i am grateful that i am born without defects cos sum pple cant even hear or see im grateful to be able to go to sch cos sum pple dont even know how to read im grateful that my mum has practically planned out my life cos sum pple's parents dont even care im glad that my mum still controls what i wear cos sum pple's parents dont even care if they parade around naked im glad that my parents nag at me cos sum pple dont even have parents im glad that i have frens cos sum pple are just social rejects im lucky to have my dreams shot down cos that means pple care for me im lucky to be blamed for doing badly cos that means they want the best for me im very lucky to have a home im very lucky to have a naggu big sister im very lucky to have a fone im a very very very lucky person i should be content isnt my life perfect? alyssa was sent back to the mental hospital after confessions (mainly becos she din believe any of wad she blabbered about)

Dont write me off just yet,9:12 PM

jus got hme frm sch wad can i say? im super tireed got piano later thats all for today :)

Dont write me off just yet,3:51 PM pheww
finally able to use comp!
whee!
havent been able to use it for ages
hehe

at ahyi's hse
been here since sun morn
yupps
going hme tml after sch
mum'll be hme at midnight tml
got piano!
din bring my piano hw
:p

todayy's valentine's day!
hahas
no valentine
so sadd
*sniff*
lolx

hahas
got a choco frm rach
hehe
yay!
a printed out thingy frm aditi
hehe
and lollipop frm jane!
lol
hahas
yay
at least got smal prezzie
:p

hehe
bought a mug for mum
its white wif a BIG heart
hahas
e heart is made up off BLUE flowers
very pretty
:)

bought chocos for gm n ahiyi + kors
hehe
bought bookmark for hl
heh
yeahhs
after that nv buy le
cos
PO CAN!
lol

hehe
tonight go out for dinner wid ahyi n everyone
lol
yeahh
going off now
byeee Dont write me off just yet,5:44 PM

hahas ok din blog yesterday cos din haf e time so anyway yupps our director for e musical came yesterday she's rely cool super nice hahas yeahhs she's directed so many theaters before! so cool can! lolx yeahhs and her bro is edmund chan! !!! lolx yeahhs had fun in el yest yupps mum n dad left for HK this morn lolx mum took my fone so im using her sony er! whee! :P gtg now byeee

Dont write me off just yet,11:00 AM

im impressed ive actually got hme before 3 thats lyk a record lolx yeahhs nearly missed the bus stop thank god i din hahas jus before e traffic light i jolted frm my slp cos i felt lyk sumone was calling me or sumthing lolx but there was no one around me wad can i say thank you god! lolx yeahhs was drizzling when i got off but by e time i nearly reach my block it was raining lyk siao my goodness scare me one min raining the next downpour lucky i had my sch jacket wif me lolx but it took time for me to: 1. stop at a corner 2. put down my bag 3.place down the plastic bag 4. take our my jacket 5.put it on 6. take out the cap hahas yeahhs and jus for ur info the place where i stopped was not sheltered umm.. yeahhs.. so still got wet anyway =.= yuppps sch was ok todayy kidna sian stil havent handed up e sci worksheets :p im jus lazy hehe yeahhs alone at hme dad will onli be hme later at about 7 plus i think cos he has a course mum.. probably 10 plus sis i duno bleahh but at night too hahas beautiful hse to myself i rely sld study since i got so much time but im rely lazy hehe maybe later :d yeahhs got a horrible headache byeee for now

Dont write me off just yet,2:53 PM

jus got hme super tired todayy went ok i guess jus a same old boring day at sch din do all the sci hws din bring any sci hw jus told mr goh tad i'll pass it to him tml he jus nod lolx umm. not that i even BROUGHT any of them hme lolx jus doing them tml yupps got piano hw to do but im lyk so lazy tml got piano *die* i'll do them when i feel lyk it later i do hope i "feel lyk it" hahas :p yupps super bored now nothing to say bye

Dont write me off just yet,4:56 PM

jus got hme dead tired cldnt sleep last night lolx yeahhs sch was normal home ec test was freaking out but i think i can at least pass hahas but i dun think can do well :( hahas yeahhs rely wana attend eleanor's concert but duno got $$ not also duno mum will allow not ohh well.. see how hahas now writing two songs one is alr complete ONLI wrote them for elizabeth n cherry cos they need it for music class hahas dun care they mus put my copyright on it! lolx MY lyrics MY feelings :p chao for now

Dont write me off just yet,5:31 PM

just had a horrible sun morn

lets not talk about it

well yeahhs

went to aunty joan's hse on fri

it was lyk a reunion thingy for all of us

got to see everyone again

michelle

charmain

edna chris

etc.

yeahhs

had fun

caught up loads

everybody has changed so much

charmain's so pretty now

edna slimed down loads

hahas yeahhs haf fun

went hme at about 2 plus

yupps talked to aunty gwen

on thur i think yeahhs

caught up lots

shared wif her loads of stuff

she's rely amazing talking to her

always makes me feel better

i love aunty gwen! =)

yeahhs

im so glad i love leanne n freya!

they totally rock!

told them about e jteam acting worshop thingy

and how i was trying to raise e money

they offered to help me!

hahas is that cool or wad?

i so love them!

yeahhs

another musical this year

im so going to die

i can hardly cope now

and ur telling me i got to do a musical?

thats crazy

im so not going for a big role

jus a teeny one

i haf no time to memorise lines wadsoever

yeahhs

leave it to e try hards.

yeahhs

n wad about piano?

i havent resumed my piano lesson last year

and i was already lyk so stressed wif e musical

this year's production is goin to be as big

and im taking piano exam this year!

how to cope?

*sighh*

n i was thinking of getting a job

now i guess e onli thing i can say is:

bye bye job

ohh well..

that means i wun be able to go to acting workshop in june hols

haiis..

nvm..

at least then i'll haf more time to get e money

always haf a good side to everything isnt there?

><

yupps

okie

saturday went out wif hui li n rach

went to watch I NOT STUPID TOO!

hahas

for me, i

t was e second time!

lolx

mum was not happie

say i waste money

which i admit is true.

=p

yeahhs

was so nice!

even thou i alr watch before..

i still cry lyk siao!

hahas so touching!

and thruout most of e movie hl n i were lyk..

"josh ang so shuai!"

lolx..

yeahhs

but watching it reminded me of jteam

:(

yupps

yeahhs

so now im at hme slacking

later ah yi they all are coming over

which is lyk kinda weird

cos we normally go to their hse every sun

ohh well..

wadever

i feel so empty now

lyk life is so meaningless

i cant even do wad i want to do

my dream shattered

AGAIN

Dont write me off just yet,11:52 AM

so tired jus got hme frm sch yeahhs wad can i say about sch? it was the usual sorry for e sucky skin duno wad happened to it i'll change it when i haf time but for now.. jus bear wif it =) got back maths paper did so badly 60% ohh goshh.. how am i gona take a maths?? gotta buck up girl! im rely so disappointed im not allowed to try out for JTEAM so unfair everyone was encouraging me to go but mum said NO im lyk arghhh was in such a "not happie" mood today its lyk so unfair apparently, everything i do is rubbish "im in eldds" "ohh.. why din u join debate?" blah blah.. long lecture about how debate is better "got to do peer tutoring" "rubbish! wad peer tutoring? come striaght hme!" "i had cca" "i tell u! u better not lie to me! dun u dare go out after sch!" "i wan to go poly" "dun be stupid! ur so clever, ur going jc!" "i wan to try out for jteam" "dun gif me nonsense. u concentrate on ur studies!" etc.etc,etc. i mean come on.. i jus want to act! is there anything wrong wif that? now she even have a problem wif my cca! always trying to get me to quit welll.. im SO SORRY cos im NOT going to quit! jc? there's nothing wrong wif jc i WANT to go to jc but the courses i wan to take are at POLY do u understand? next i am not that clever ok im moderate im normal i can study but im not a genius i cant always get straight As im rely sorry i want to get them too but im not perfect ok? im not even saying that i wan to drop out of sch i jus wan to TRY for jteam its not lyk its confirmed i',ll get in i probably even wun but u dont care wad i wan to do wad i LOVE to do wad means so much to me it doesnt even hold a lil place in ur thoughts all u think of is wad u THINK is the best but its not you dont know i want to do what I enjoy not wad u THINK i wld

yet another dream shattered

by YOU

Dont write me off just yet,4:04 PM