Dont write me off just yet,3:29 PM

awoken by a call frm eden at 9 cldnt go back to sleep after that good news! im not in 2e2 next year! whee! im in a better class! 2e6! whee! hahs.. yeahh leanne saw the list at sch apparently its up im wif her freya tricia stasha aditi and cherry! elizabeth, grace n nat are in either 2e2 or 2e3 i cant rmb. lala yest saw joanna peh n pierre peng at heeron! hahs.. took picture wif them =D other than dat yest was umm.. lets jus say it wasnt my day i wasnt in a good mood many stuff happened arghh dun wish to talk abt it well guess i haf to complete e work by myself arghh parents they nv understand wadever.. i dun rely care jus haf to do it myself loh suppose to go library but in the end? cldnt mayb later still got time aiyahhs.. wadever i do is also subjected to their approval even whether i go to the library! !!! cruel reality bringing back memories that were meant to be forgotton beautiful memories better of forgotton lovely lies ones i dont want to hear anymore no more no more of u no more of them im growing up learning fast i can live without you it hurt too much the laughter my tears ur smiles my fears im letting everything fade away they nv exsisted im moving on living without you all things are negotiatable except the truth all lies has its price but you din pay for it someone else did you din feel the pain i did. i try to forget those bittersweet memories `they'll nv come back im mixed glad sad lonely wadever `gone all gone .

Dont write me off just yet,11:23 AM

whee! cant post much todayy yest studied wif joy was awesome we got so much stuff done hahs.. now got all the notes for sci jus need to write up the report chi one more article left! whee! and that leaves.. 2 pages of eng 4 pags of expressions the chi sci report and e 4 maths exercises hahs,, naming it all out lyk so many like that

but its a lot less than how we started out

ohh well

few more days

gotta buck up

mayb meeting at causeway point tml

cos joy's not allowed to go orchard

got scolded cos she keep coming my hse

=p

feel so bad

cos she live so far away.

haiis..

being forced to go out AGAIN

family wana go sim lim square

ahhs

sian

i dun wana go out!

bleahh..

mum's forcing me

not fun..

bleahh..

cos wana buy sis's mp3

blahh..

i dun get one

hahs..

mayb dad mayb get one for me

but thats a long shot

probably gotta share

ohh well

nothign to say liao

byee

Dont write me off just yet,1:05 PM

well, its a lovely morning todayy later joy's coming over yupps to do summore work *screams* sch's starting next week! hw still not finish! i am so dead lol but i reakon joy is dead-er lol cos i did more than her! =p cldnt sleep last night laid back and remienced over loads of stuff all that hurt all that pain ouch thank god this year is nearly over =) i'll do my last "this year relfections" on the 31st i searched for an answer looking high and low i just cldnt figur out how cld it have ended up that way did u feel hurt? was u angry? why didnt it blow over? i discovered i was angry but im not anymore now im hurt i cldnt believe you'd do that at first i thought "why sld i care? if u bothered to do that then its not worth it" but its not lyk that its not cos i love you youre my fren and i love you i still care for you i miss you do you miss me? i dont know but wad u've shown is that you've forgotton abt me you didnt care just erased me from ur life just because of that? why? can i ask u why? just cos of that lil statement? i still havent told anyone it hurts to tell its not that im embarrased no not that it jus HURTS and now it even hurts more cos u dont care at all u've forgottton about me i miss the times where i wld talk to you for hours even if it was about nothing you dont know that do u? i miss you but u dont care cant believe its so hard its so hard to trust pple i thought you'd be there for me i was wrong

Dont write me off just yet,11:43 AM

hieee im back after 2 days of no blogging brrr.. its cold.. raining.. bleahh.. i hate it when it rains well.. we had a nice christmas let me show u our itinerary christmas eve: sit around at hme reading fanfic around 6p.m distant nephew arrives it takes apprx 2 mins to make me dislike him bleahh.. totally no manners hahs.. i miss alysious and timberly my model nephew n niece =D me cont to read fanfic after a while mum, sis come home frm picking up the cake hui li n ah yi + gm arrives blah blah. turn off the comp laze around talked ate played guitar jammed together wahaha our lil band huili, kor(rong), meee n sis lol kor played guitar me piano n hui li n sis sang whee! was pretty cool =p ate summore we[aka me, hl,] pulled both kors n sis to e room played many many rounds of BIGTWO! whee! went out nephew n distant cousin went hme wahhas inside the hse we all go CHANGE lol dressed up was pretty cool started taking photos we went all out that day it was fun =) hahs.. yeahh waited for midnight opened prezzies this is wad i got: -toberlene chocos[frm mum's fren] -superstar cd[mum n dad] im suppose to get a bible too. ;) -cute tea cup[hui li] -book[kor wei] -chocos[kor rong] and money frm ah yi n gm hahs.. yeahh next day christmas day went for service got hme to eat leftovers frm that night DELICIOUS =D lazed abit played guitar left for ah yi's hse lazed there read fic jammed wif kor n hl ate dinner slackkk boxing day went to orchard wif family walked around ate macs wif dad went to see sis cut here ended up in me doing my hair cos my hair was getting super frizzy n out of control e guy told me to get a.. umm.. lol duno how to pronounce it neither do i know how to spell =p bleahh.. anyway its suppose to make my hair less frizzy and softer but it also haf mild rebonding effects well my hair is straight again but the MAIN thing is its not frizzy anymore! woo! lol but still haf split ends.. cldnt get rid of all.. ohh well.. u win some u lose some yupps after that we were actually planning to haf a FAMILY CHRISTMAS NEOPRINT!! lol but had no time sad had appointment wif old american frens no they're not americans they are e singaporeans that stayed in amercia when we were there. rushed to chervon karaoke at nine went to e other rom wif sis to watch ai de zhang men ren went back sang abit >< went hme yupps todayy got up played piano went to bring mummy to orchard went to sch wif sis cos she needed to collect report book and i had to check wad class im in next year so stupid! went to e general office they said we'll onli know next week *dai* lukcy i went there wif sis if i made a pointless trip there alone i wld be SO pissed hahs.. yeahh anyway got hme ate tralala.. watched tv did piano hw now on e comp finish later going to edit sum weird fotos that kor[both'] n i took at ah yi's hse. lol. yupps. thats all bah i think. byeee! =)

Dont write me off just yet,5:00 PM

ok not going for a long post today today's CHRISTMAS EVE! woo! merry christmas! whee! lol woke up did the usual saturday chores ohh.. so not fun then play piano whee! ive finally mastered ancient of days! yay! lol read finish cassie claire fics found a rely cool d/g fic to read! whee! going to read it after i go tagging ppl blogs byee! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!=))

Dont write me off just yet,12:15 PM

hellooooooooo i feel SO burdened lol my task for today: 1.sweep floor 2.mop floor 3.keep clothes 4.tidy studyroom 5.clean up bedroom 6.try to do sum hw!! ahhs.. sian lahhs! bleahh.. i feel so out of it my body so tired eyes closing yest was COOL met elizabeth n e others at JEC den we went to e tent thingy to c the CAMPUS SUPERSTARS! whee! but there was sum old pervert standing near us he was so OLD but such a PERVERT keep coming near us and looking at us we move further he follow old sex maniac.. bleahh.. cherry was cursing him =p she talk beri LOUD "AI YO. SO OLD ALR STILL COME THIS SORT OF PLACE BE CAREFUL HOR OLD LE LATER CANNOT TAKE THE STRESS HEART ATTCK AND DIE AH!" lol.. seriously she rely said that! lol i started laughing but i suspect that that guy din understand eng bleahh.. there was also another irritating personel a guy wif an umbrella supporting wei lian the water frm his umbrella keep dripping on US bloody pissing off can! we ask him whether can do sumthing abt it he lifted his umbrella higher same results all of us complaining all the way =p cherry again "i tell you ahhs we better buy an umbrella for him for his birthday since hor his umbrella IS OBVIOUSLY OF LOW QUALITY! keep dripping on pple!" lol felt kinda embarassed rely that poor guy guess it rely wasnt his fault e posters that renfred's mum made almost ALL got WET the thing was they were BLACK in colour got wet the water ran ONTO OUR CLOTHES! except that wen it got on our clothes it was PURPLE weird ehh? stupid thing was elizabeth, cherry AND i were wearing WHITE SHIRTS!!! tian ahhs! *faints* lol but later we went to eat dinner had a good time laughing lyk siao ate fishball noodle cherry keep making us laugh so scared to choke on the fishball! =p lucky never whee! lol yahh after that all the complications etcetc got a lift hme! frm "little miss malaysia"'s mum also one of those pagents little girl her mum was super frenly but they live in JB and were on their way hme so fecth me n sherlyn hme btw, sherlyn is one of e girls i met that day sister of one of those pagent girls as well yeahh she stays at yew tee so quite near my hse yepp so reached hme and watched AI DE ZHANG MEN REN! hahs! so nice lehh that show! whee! so funny! tralala im still SO tired bleahh nothing to say le byeee

Dont write me off just yet,11:29 AM

oh no! second last week of dec! hw still not finished! *cries* jia you peeps! lol i meant fellow torture-ees not torturers lol tian ahhs i feel so "bu an" my hw! die! lol later meeting elizabeth atJEC whee! can go c the campus superstar! but mummy not so happie cos will be back late bleahh.. but im lucky that she even let me go thought thatshe wldnt! whee! yeahh. found out sum stuff last week suspected it for a long long time finally got it confirmed in a way icant believe it jus cos of that lil statement u turn your back on me? i though friendship was stronger than that i wish you cld forgive me i wanted to apologise but by doing that u didnt even give me a chance but i still have to say this wad i said to you if i had to do it all over again i wld still say the same thing cos its not my fault and i had to let you know how i feel i'd apologise if i made u feel bad or wadever but im not going to apologise for wad i said maybe it was harsh or wadever but i was pissed ok i was sick of letting u criticize me i cldnt stand it but that didnt mean that i didnt wan to speak to u forever how cld u do that? i treated you like a friend all the way i trusted you believed in you is friendship that fragile? i hate what u did to me now we cant even be friends just because of what you did what is wrong with you! so now your're allowed to criticize pple but when pple fight back its lyk "ohh. bye then" you jus cant step back and accept that you're wrong ugh! look what you've done

Dont write me off just yet,11:20 AM

heyy got news yay! kor's back frm china! whee! got prezzie! lol mus go collect but duno when heehee becos of kor woke up early he touched down bout 6a.m but called me at 8 plus so bo bian wake up bleahh.. chatted wif him and cher while doing abit of english *dies* sch starting hw still not finish! yahh play piano on comp! ive finally mastered "ancient of days" woots! yay! im so clever whee! lol tml going JEC to support e campus superstars whee! lol downloaded maple again addicted again bleahh.. lol going mapeling now chao

Dont write me off just yet,10:18 AM

lol okayy i havent been blogging for two days so its time to blog to make up for them sunday woke up early went to service by myself it was pretty good i guess saw mrs lisa yap![pri sch brownies teacher] chatted wif her for a long long time it was cool talking to her again after that walked all the way hme "jiao suan!" got a call frm eden caught up wif her =) ate lunch changed went to chervon karaoke! yay!

sang for bout an hour

went arcade wif hui li

went back up again

finish singing

went to ah yi's hse to eat dinner

slack

monday

woke up

played piano

slacked

got a lift frm dad to thomson plaza

went to joy's hse

did sci hw the whole day

went hme

ate

read

sleep

end of my two day itenary.

exciting hur?

my brain is still hurting frm e sci hw

and we cldnt figur out how to do the last task

sobx..

help!

lol.. my blogger is weird.. blahh.. duno if u guys can tell. cos the words jus align themselves. sumtimes to the right, sumtimes to the left. dun ask me why. its jus weird. blahh.. sld probabl;y do sum work today. byeee

Dont write me off just yet,12:00 PM

what is wrong wif me? what the hell is wrong wif me? i see it i hear it i feel it everywhere i go whatever im doing where ever i am i just know it i know that im wrong im being rebellious im breaking your heart im straying away im breaking my promises i keep my smiles up cos the other's are too shallow they cant see beyond it they dont know what's inside im jus normal im fine im okay my life is perfect boring but perfect "she's perfect her perfect life perfect friends perfect grades[which btw isnt even true] perfect sch" what shit is that they dont take the time who NEEDS people like this? ive taken the wrong route again i know i know all the time im walking futher and futher away im running away frm ur hand im refusing to read wad u wan me to im jus being self indulgent being them indulgent indulging in everything but YOU and i hate it i dont want to do that its not fun its not good its not easy but sometimes it seems harder doing the right thing the thing u want me to do i thought i could do it i know i can but sometimes i jus DONT WANT to do it thats right i know that's not me anymore ive lost myself again somewhere out there its easy to tell pple its gona be alright two days later i lose myself too again its destroying me i want to break out of it but im also reluctant the pull of the wide street is overwhelming i dont want to squeeze in the narrow one what if i stumble? what if i fall? what if i find myself alone again? i thought that i cld depend on them i thought that i cld trust them i thought that they'd be there for me i was proven wrong again how many times do u want me to go through this? it tears me apart that narrow street how am i suppose to go through it? isnt it easier on the wide path? i rely want to do it what u want me to do im sorry i neglected u i refused to talk to you i pushed u aside cos i was too self obsessed too caught up with my own self pity my own selfishness im sorry i rely want to go back help me give me the strength please im sorry im sorry i rely am its so hard god? can u hear me? its so hard i know that ur right beside me but i cant feel u i know u wun turn me away but im stuck stuck between me and you stuck between going on lyk nothing happened and feeling lyk shit or going on knowing that its gona be alright but still feel lyk shit okayy this is wrong ohh dammit its wrong im lost really i know i need you help me please i love you i really do give me the strength please i need it i cant take it anymore i just need to know again i need to be reassured convinced please. help.

Dont write me off just yet,8:22 PM

HELLO last night was so FUN mummie had her frens over aunty janet pauline angela n neo hahs.. made loads of food. yum! chicken wings mini pizza ba gua sausages whee! yeahh.. as usual, the adults talked we listened den they had karaoke ekk.. all the old song we[me,sis,angela] retreated to the study room played guitar! [technically, not me.] angela got pulled out to sing we[sis n me] lazed around. [after some time] me went to listen to them sing after listening to all e oldies songs angela n i retreated to study room again hahs.. we did a DUET there! whee! then later neo joined us hee.. den we were a TRIO lol.. was wayy fun cos we sang those "xian dai" songs hee.. not e oldie oldies one..! hee! then, i read fer a while den went to bed ohhmy god! and ohh yeah! renfred got into e xiao yuan superstar ER SHI DA! went to e webbie to see he looked so cute there!!! whee! woke up at abt 6 plus? went to toilet thought i saw sumone in e living room went out of toilet went to investigate ALL FOUR OF THEM SLEPT OVER! hahs.. aunty janet on e living room sofa pauline on a single seat wif her head on e table angela on e study room sofa neo on the study room FLOOR! lol! i nearly laughed out loud when i saw them but they went hme quite early bout 6 or 7 plus cos angela had to go work lol.. but it was fun! went back to sleep woke up a few times finally got out of bed at 11 slacked lazed read played piano den da yi came wif er yi hahs.. actually suppose to call them BIAO YI cos mummie's couz mahhs but duno why since young is call them l yk that le lol.. who cares they bought GRAPES! yay! ilove grapes! hee.. everyone always buy grapes for us lol but they're always PURPLE grapes i lyk GREEN grapes better! whee! im high today. duno why cos there's nothing to be high about mayb cos gm's off my back today cos she went back for e weekend! yay! 2 days of freedom not that i dont love her i do. i rely do jus that it feels so carefree lyk that! ha! =) hahs.. nothing rely much to write le. blog later. byeee

Dont write me off just yet,12:11 PM

it is once again another boring morning joy's coming my house later to do our hol hw what else? my life seems so boring now so meaningless bleahh its jus the normal rolarcoaster that flies UP then drops all the way DOWN and then have bits where nothing happens and i jus sit back and admire the scenery ohh yay my life is so interesting gm is complaining on e fone again about wad else? duh.. me old pple.. they always rmb ur bad points the good things are always brainwashed away ohh well guess im sorta used to being misunderstood by her thats life cant choose ur family can u? jus gotta love them anyway eww... why do i feel lyk im doing nothing constructive on this earth? probably cos im not eh i wana go out and do something wu neng wei li i feel so useless ahhs.. i wana get out of this house jus wana hang wif ye i miss them i feel so ALONE

Dont write me off just yet,11:13 AM

pain
love
hurt
forgiveness
frustration
patience
regret
trust



im learning
learning to forgive
to forget
to be patient
and understanding
and not to fret

cos nobody's perfect
gotta try again
despite disappointment
despite the heartbreak

doing the wrong thing
choosing the wrong way
ive gone through that
but im still okayy

you hurt me
tore me apart
shove me aside
and stomp on my heart

i fell down

but its okayy

its alright

just gona get up again

learning to forgive
learning to love
beginning to recover
im on my way

things do hurt me
i cry alot
still ponder over
the wounds of the past

being alone
being sad
its all over
though not necessaryly bad

because of that
ive learnt
that you can spite me
and it'll hurt
but i CAN get better
i can forget it all
cos guess what?
i got up after my fall.
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okayy.. this is way way sucky.. it was nice the first time i wrote it. but guess wad? i accidently deleted it. tried to rmb but i guess its not as good as the first one. ohh well.. that's life. jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai.

i guess im okay.

Dont write me off just yet,3:46 PM had my piano lesson.
got tons of hw cos teacher wun be here next week.

now sis's frens are here. shihwa n melissa. ahhs.. i rely need ta to my hw! i want to do my hw! hah.. but i rely dont have the mood.. hee.. later bahhs.. =D

now they're jus talking n blah blahh.. later gotta go downstairs wif gm to buy majong paper n eggs.. so hot.. dun rely wan to go.

ahhs.. rely duno wad to write lahhs.. sian.. bye byee Dont write me off just yet,1:38 PM rescheldued my piano lesson to tml cos i was too tired
cldnt sleep last night
was so free
but kor board the plan liao
so din rely haf anyone to chat wif

after changing my lesson
suddenly feel SO RERFRESHED
hahs.. when haf lesson
super tired
i also realized that fact
its funny hur?><

feel so loneliee
suddenly im so free BUT
there's no one to talk to me liao
one more week!
sian!

later going to plaza to met eden. dunno for wad.. she jio me go. hahs.. feel kinda sian. gotta make appointment wif joy soon, to do e hw! butt she's still asleep! as usual..

hahs. nothing much to write rely. going to slack summoore. byeee Dont write me off just yet,10:30 AM now kinda feel lonely. kor kor went to e airport liao. suppose to call me wif e fone there. but my fone din ring. tian ahhs.. 1 week lehhs.. who's gona crap wif me on e fone? blahh.. at least he say he'll help me buy present! yay! =)

wuu..! fone jus vibrated! sms frm korkor! hahs.. he used his mummie's fone. me now looking for pics n stuff. pretty! Dont write me off just yet,10:33 PM pheww.. its such a hot dayy today! like my new bloggie skin peeps? pretty rite? i changed it the other day. cldnt get the other one. cris told me that i sldnt use that html cos its a bit more complex. so i chose this one! and let me clarify, its's CRISTABEL not crisp. hehe.. =)

yupps.. its jus SO HOT! feel like im in an oven. *cries* gona melt. todayy was a good girl. did some hw! at last! weeheehee! joy is back frm camp liao so i guess gotta meet up to do the rest! hee..!

korkor going to china tonight. how sadd.. who's gona pei me man? why mus go?! 1 week so long summore. bleahh..=(

yest went out wif mummy again. she went for facial wif ah yi so while they two were in e room, hui li n i went to far east to shop. din buy anyting den cos had NOCASH! lol.. after they finished their facial, we went to walk walk at wheellock's marks n spencer. i went to borders for a lil while..

later went to eat. heh.. had to walk frm one end of isetan to e other to get to e underpass! walk to taka.. den link to lucky plaza, JUS so i can get to macs! hahs.. BY MYSELF. lol.. finally reach there, bought my food and happily MADE MY WAY BACK. hahs.. and i saw OLINDA CHO! on my way back. think she was buying a camera or sumthing? or was it hp? mp3? hahs.. cant rely rmb! onli rmb the back of her hair isPURPLE! hehe!

wuu.. den went back to fareast and shopped for clothes. bought a bubble skirt. hee.. think its kinda adorable. but dont haf any shirts to go wif. *shrugs* haiis.. e shirts there were super ex$$ so din buy. oh well.. i like e skirt!

yupps.. we shopped for a lil while more. look at bibles.. but din buy cos din find one that i liked. den went home. was goin to take bus but got tired of waiting. so took taxi! hehe!

haiis.. yupps.. gm is here at my hse again.. picked her up yest. duno how long she's gona stay this time. hee.. ah yi n hui li dropped by alr and are still here.. pheww.. at least they can entertain her n leave me sum peace for a whilE! =p

yest night n jus now was looking thru sum old fotos, and sum "not so old" fotos. hahs.. we were SO CUTE wen we were young! my sis n i i mean. saw hui li, dage, and erge too. hahs.. super cute.

came across christmas fotos we took in year 2002, n 2001. also in 1999. they were all wif POG peeps. kinda missed those days. and my 10th birthday party, i saw pastor sally, apostle, pastor julie, pastor frankie, the khoos.. the quahs.. etc. true, now POG has more peeps. but i wish i cld hang out wif all of them again. those days were so fun.

no christmas wif POG this year. it's gona be weird.. well.. life goes on.. guess it wun be possible this year. mayb not even possible for next year, or the next. but im jus gona keep on hoping and praying..

hahs.. yeahh okayys den..jus gona edit sum parts of my bloggie. chao peeps!

sometimes i still ask myself
why did u do that to me?
was it my fault?
or maybe u jus din care?
all i know is that
when the truth came out
i was the last to know.
that hurt.
Dont write me off just yet,5:02 PM woahh.. am kinda tired out.. jus spent e whole morn helping out wif hsework. kinda pissed at e system we're working at:

finished assigned job
asked if there's anything else needed to do
no reply
asked again
got told of for being long winded
"why cant u jus stand down there and wait for a task?"
stand down there and wait
get pushed
"ur in the way!"

so.. i finally get on the comp since apparently im "in the way" n there's nothing else for me to do. but even as i blog, im running to and fro frm the comp cos they've found stuff for me to do in the end. well.. there's jus no pleasing sum pple.. hahs.. am i complaining? guess i am. but den, wad do u expect? im a thirteen year old that has twice the amount of hse work that i normally do! of course im complaning! =p

yest as i said, got banned frm using e comp for e whole of the day. lazed at hme, played piano den decided to go out wif mum for a hair cut. it ended out as a DAY OUT WIF MUM and i din get my hair cut in the end. >< style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 207px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" height="291" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6714/716/320/mummie%20n%20me.jpg" width="205" border="0">

hehe.. nice right? i love e lil snowmen! so cute! =))

yupps.. after that.. wew WALKEED SUMMORE[die! leg die!], den went to STARBUCKS! yay! had a ice cuppochino[whoops! spelling!] and ate my famous amos cookies while mummie ate a sliece of CHEESECAKE! weeheehee.. sat down there.. den went to findd christmas prezzies for alysious and his sister. my two aww.. completely adorable lil newphew and niece!

theyy actually quite poor thing ahhs. cos their family quite traditional, tot that onli christian celebrate christmas, so they dun celebrate. den alysious told da yi[his grandma lahhs] that this year christmas mus buyu prezie. lol.. getting so clever! 7 this year! so bigg liao! hehe! soo da yi decided to bring him n timberly[his sis] to our hse today to see our CHRISTMAS TREE.

heh! after looking for SO LONG, mummy was jus going too buy him a boring old car. LUCKY i spotted a COOL REMOTE CONTROL CAR! and wif a very reasonable price! hehe! it was SO COOL C AN! i see le i also wan mann! lol! hope he likes it! =d for timberly, i chose a lil hello k itty mini dollhouse thingy for her. extremely cute! hahs.. super super! i think i used to haf sumthing lyk that!=)

yupps.. sos aftere that longg and tiring day.. finally went to e hair dresser, but.. THEY WERER ALR CLOSED. hahas.. ohh well.. so decied to follow kor's advice, jus waitt till iit grow long den cut. hehe.. funny how things thurn out.

lol.. anywae.. i shall end h ere.. in case u havent reeaized. my keyboard AND mouse has gone crazy again.. lol.. and ONE MOR ER THING! stole a pic of kenzo's puppy! hee! its so adorable! put it up here for u guys to see!

awww..! isnt iit lovely? hahs. putu here for u guyys to see! chao! Dont write me off just yet,1:55 PM whoops.. sorries nv update todayy. cos was a NAUGHTY GIRL. and was banned frm using comp. but lucky thej[fren frm aussie] sms-ed mee to say tad she got msn liao and ask me to go online so i can use! woots!

hahs.. went out wif mummy todayy. tell u guys abt it tml. chao chao! Dont write me off just yet,10:03 PM tian ahhs! i wan that blogskin man! its so pretty! mus wait for cris's reply thou. sian sian.. bleahh.. i wan tad skin!

later going to causeway wif wei en to meet kenzo. yupps. not going orchard liao. uh huh.. going to watch e show lohhs. den walk walk. hahs.. i'll leave about 12:30.

hmmz.. i realize that my posts are getting shorter n shorter. lol.. ohh well. Dont write me off just yet,10:54 AM HEYY! guess wad? found this super. urber. NICE BLOGGIE SKIN on cris's webbie! my goshh! it was SO COOL. hahs.. okayys.. mayb not tad cool. but i tot that it was REAL PRETTY. tried to grab the source, bt there was sumthing wrong wif it. :( ahh well.. mayb shall e-mail her to ask for e html! wee! Dont write me off just yet,4:10 PM todayy

woke up.
brushed teeth.
ate chicken pie.
ploped down on e sofa to rest.
got screamed at[by gm] to pack the beds.
packed the beds.
rushed piano hw.
had piano lesson.
ate lunch.
watched tv.
chatted on e fone.
played piano.
on the comp.

interesting day i had so far huh? i jus haf this HUGE BAGGAGE of HOLIDAY HW tad i know im suppose to do but i jus feel to lazy to do it. at e same time feel super guilty for not doing it. yay.. mixture of emotions..

going to orchard to meet pri sch frens. actually, i dont even noe if anyone's goin to be there. kenz said that many cant go, ask me to call others. like everyone cant go lyk tat.. *sighs*. hope nv kena pang. later go there nobody. lyk that den ma lu. =(

im tired. and i dont noe wad to say. chao peeps.

tolerate alyssa. rmb, tolerate is the key. Dont write me off just yet,3:05 PM ahhs.. duno wad to write.. got cough.. kinda lost my voice. din haf piano lesson cos teacher is sick. guess we haf some kind of telaphy. lol..

well.. i guess im okay now. sorry for my bad temper for e past few days. well, im sorry but i still have to say this, it wasnt for no reason. AND, im still indignant for having to apologise even when im not in the wrong. goshh.. wad is wrong wif this bloody world??

tian ahhs.. nvm, forget it. finished reading animal farm todayy[2days!]. so sad! why did boxer have to die! i liked boxer! hahs.. benjamin is so cute too! aww.. but e piggies are so evil! bleahh.. hahs.. imagining if it RELY happened. *gasp*!

was suppose to go out wif sum pri sch frens todayy. ended up onli kenz and i can go. hahs.. in e end.. all nv go. postphoned to fri. blahh.. bored..

duno wad ta write.. chao Dont write me off just yet,11:17 AM ah ang kor kor's wife jus gave birth yest. went to e hospi to see her todayy. e baby's adorable. baby girl, name's mckali. or something like tad. blahh.. his wife is thai i think. hmmz.. yupps. she's super cute. super small.

this morning din start of well at all. due to wad? gm of course! who else? tian ahhs.. why does she keep misunderstanding me? and i jus found out tad ah yi is still angry at me. ohh yay.. the last thing i need is to have one more person angry at me.

blahh! anyone notice a certain trend in my recent post? sorry. but im not in the mood to write light happy things. i may be being a prat. but i know that what they accused me of doing is TOTALLY NOT TRUE. n im onli being a prat cos i got misunderstood.

ohh please.. get off my back Dont write me off just yet,3:39 PM super tired.. in a super bad mood. din get to sleep much cos my gm was snoring so loud.. moved out to e living room sofa to sleep last night. peaceful.. but hot!

the other day. went to meet lyn. ate macs.. did ABIT of hol hw. walked around. went to e vcd shop. lyn rented "ai shang qian jin mei mei". hahs.. super nice. of course lahhs.. my recomendation mahhs! da bao dinner. went to her hse to watch. but onli managed to watch till disk3.

ended up staying there. went to church e next day. was pretty awesome. had fun. met loads of peeps. but faith wasnt there again, in bangkok. but still, had a nice time lahhs.. chatted wif pple.. caught of wif cher. kor passed me e cd tad he helped me burn n a vcd he said was super nice to watch. =)

later on.. went to eat lunch wif e khoos. went back to their hse. watch ai shang qian jin mei mei again! watched till disk 5. den dad came to pick me up to go ah yi hse. sad to say this. but things rely went downhill frm then on. which is the reason of my bad "mood-ness."

onli happy part was that er ge helped me to restring e guitar! e strings are real pretty! sliver! and sounds real nice. hahs.. now i actually haf to start learnign properly! hahs! cher! hurry come and teach me! also that we watched HONG XIN DA JIANG! hahs! super nice! but i din like wang lu jiang. why he win so many things? bleahh..

was okayy actually. jus a normal sun at their hse. got insulted by da ge. ignored him and den got accused of being rude. yeah.. wad did u wan me to say? "thank u for insulting me?" i dont rely think so! he insulted wad i was wearing too. and in case u din know, i detest pple commenting on my attire. of course, i ignored him again. same results.. bleahh.. wad is WRONG wif the males in my life? da ge seems to think that he's RELY my bro. well, i am SO SORRY cos u are SO NOT. u are only my COUSIN and nothing more. and dad. u haf suddenly become so STRICT and protective, wad is wrong wif u? when did u started becoming so naggy anywae??

got scolded many times tad day. mostly of being "rude". ohh gosh! i wasnt even TALKING to them. i was jus JOKING wif sis. and she totally knew that,thank god SHE knows that i was jus joking. but NO. the adults had to take it SO SERIOUSLY. "ohh.. lysa is so rude now a days. she keep answering back". for goodness sake. i was even talking TO or ABOUT them.

gm was seriously unpleased wif me. yeahh.. who was the one who packed ALL the cuboards and drawers in the study room, bedroom, AND livingroom? ME lahhs. den who is the one who gets scolded when they get messy? ALSO ME. ohh god. everything is directed at me now. come on! i helped ok! n now i get blamed for sumone else's mess! this sucks.

went to buy sch books today. came hme. sis told me that gm jus spent half an hr on e fone wif ah yi complaining about me. about LAST TIME stuff. jus cos she's unplease wif me that doesnt mean that she has to rake up the past right? and those stuff are TOTALLY misunderstood! i swear, old pple has NO SENSE OF HUMOUR. and when they misinterprete things, they are ALWAYS right. and I am always WRONG. ughh! ive fought the temptation of screaming SHUT UP!!! at everyone in this freaking hse for a very long time.

and dad? ur being such a prat! wad happened to u? u used to haf such a sense of humour! ughh! wad is WRONG wif everybody? yah. they're tired. and im not? jus cos im younger, so that makes it ALRIGHT for them to order me about even thou im jus as tired? wad logic is that? i cant be everybody's maid okay! i help sis cos she is my SISTER and NEEDS IT. and i'll gladly help everyone else. but wad i hate is that i pack everything up so nicely, someone comes and mess it up, and then I. ME! gets the scolding for it! and is there a need to SCREAM for my help? and to scold me jus cos im not sui chuan sui dao??

ughh.. ive jus been reminded why i dont like coming hme. this totally sucks. ohh yay. suddenly, lysa's the black sheep of the family. ohh well. actually, ive always BEEN the black sheep. yup. everyone else is perfect. im jus the abnormal, irritating and annoying one.

arghhh! Dont write me off just yet,12:51 PM going to meet christy n possibly cher later. that wld be cool. hope that cher can cum.

im not feeling myself today. in a super bad mood.

`out Dont write me off just yet,11:29 AM banging out my frustrations. i hate it when u do this to me. making a fuss out of nothing. i detest feeling like this. but its something that boils within me. why cant you jus trust me a little bit more? why dont you treat me like im actually the age i am. and not some 6 year old. i jus boil in rage when you do this to me. it hurts me inside. i hate the way you push me like that. why cant you jus try to understand me better? you say that its for my own good. but the truth is, is onli wad u think would be better. you never thought of how i would feel. you'd rather put me through this pain. you never considered about my opinion. you only thought about your own. how YOU think that YOU are right and im nothing but a kid. you always treat me like a kid. i hate it. has it ever dawned upon u that not everything u think, say or do is right? that not everything u do to me and want for me is the best? and have u ever thought that maybe im old enough to at least know what i want and what is good for me in certain aspects? i admit, im young and im not all that wise. but im not a baby anymore. when are you going to realize that? when are you going to realize that i can make decisions for myself. and that im not going to regret them. and if i do, i'd take full responsibility. you hurt me by thinking im young and immatured. that my thoughts and ways, my dreams and ambitions are immature and unrealistic. but im not going to cry. no matter how heavy those tears are. you're not going to see my tears. ever again.

`let me go. im a big girl now Dont write me off just yet,6:01 PM tian ahhs.. duo why, todayy i jus feel SO TIRED. din feel up to started on hol hw. joy wass supposeo to come my hse todayy to do together but i thank god that she waas feelilng too shag to come over. hallelujah! if not i think i would haf collasped sooner or later.

now chattin wif kor on e line. on msn wif grace n jack. bleahh.. i jus feel tireed all over. one of the guitar strings broke when kor was helping me tune. the middle stringg. sadd.. but still can play e first bar of qing fei de yi! wahahs..

still lwaiting for mum to gif me the "go ahead" to be able to go out wif cher n crispin so that i can borrow their guitar basic books and to buy guitar strings. now cant practiece. siianx.. hmmz.. in case u cant tell, my keyboard is still super weird. so ya.. my words naturally come out weird too.

sianzation.. im going to faint.tian ahhs.. sumone save me! Dont write me off just yet,2:47 PM ahhs.. not feeling well. yeseterday was the earliest that ive slept for the pasat month. at abt 12 plus ba.. dark ringlets darkeninig. whole body letargic. so shag.. taking care of sis. hardly anytime to do aynything liao. *yawnx*

woke up todayy at about 9 a.m this morning. really suprer tired. draagged myself up. did piano hw. attended to sis. atee brekkie. helped grandma. read. had piano lesson. blah blah. ate lunch.. stupid comp wldnt work. even noww also weird weird one. my keyboard esp. pls dont mind my occasional spelling g"weirdness". like i said, its not my fautl, my keyboard is jus acting up again.

got the guitar yestl. hahs.. ha[ppy. but its in a serious need ofo tuning. blahh.. stupid thinig is, i haf no idea how to tune the blessed thing. so going to drop by at hui li's hse later. ask kor to helpl me tune it. also borrow a pickc frm them. coss i cantn rely pllay w/o one. hahs.. and borrow the basic guitaar book.

tian ahhs. but words arer seriously looking so STUPID. i am so sorry, i rely dont haf the energy to alter them liao. jus m ake do kay? im sure that its still legible. haiis.. blog later. chao Dont write me off just yet,1:41 PM